Happy birthday...

I'm worried that I may not be able to finish my revision on time. All these years, what I yearned for in my studies, I've always managed to achieve it, no matter how tough it may be, and I hope so in this case...

Oh, Happy Birthday, Jeremy! Hey, stop teasing me about Roy--we are just friends, and that's final. =D

I shan't blog much now until after the exams, wish me luck!

Being crazy today...

Haha...I just went to www.lovecalculator.com and calculated couple's love for each other. Well, I think it works if you put the couple's full names...haha...I did for some people, and the percentage is really high... ...=) Going to www.findyourfate.com is also fun...=p

Anyway, I'm in the computer lab again for CME, though I took this chance to do what I like. I've finished doing what I'm supposed to do anyway...haha...So the first thing I would do is to blog, then go and do what I like! =p

I've already planned what I would do after the exams to keep me occupied and busy in school, where I get bored the most after the exams. What else can I do besides getting bored to death? I can spend the time to do my homework if the teachers give us early--anyway, I've planned to finish ALL my holiday assignments within the first 2 weeks of my holidays before I go off to holiday... ...

I had a weird dream, about the encounter with evil blood-suckers. They include vampires, zombies, ghosts etc, and my mission was to save my friends from becoming one. Funny thing is, the location was at a void deck, and these bloodsuckers are very unexpected--they looked like people I know...Well, it stopped till there...

Dreaming...

Dream of, dream of everything, dream of, dream of everything... ...Oh, that's a verse from one of Hi-5's songs. I really can dream about anything...and all my dreams are fantasies and really nice, nice but weird...

I have a very imaginative mind, and now, I'm imagining how it'll be like when I go on holiday to Genting Highlands during the holidays. I wonder how much fun can it be to ride on the roller-coaster since I've never rode on it before...

I really can't wait for the exams to be over, then I can start putting my creation together--I've been thinking of composing a song for Wei Rui and Xin Hui to show how much I treasure our friendship. One's in choir, the other has music background, and they are my closest friends... ...

Life...

After reading Bryan's blog, I realise that he's not the only one in agony. I am too, though I fight it better than anyone else. As for Wei Theng...I never knew he's so sensitive. I guess everyone has 2 faces, especially me. I seem very quiet in school, keeping to myself, seldom interact with people etc, but when I'm comfortable with people I know, I'm exactly the opposite--I'll talk and joke with people, suddenly becoming very active. I know, it's tough to understand me well, nearly impossible in fact, but once I open up, you'll slowly know me. It'll take time though...

To people who feel very confused and as if no one understands what you are going through, perhaps I can help. After all, I've experienced agony, betrayal, frustration, loneliness...and I've no one to turn to. Do people really understand why I cry? I doubt so. Oh, there's nothing to feel sorry about, I'm used to it anyway, and there's still June, July, August, Kindolph, Snowball, Icecream, Hobo, Spunky, Sniffer... ... ... ...They are always there for me, and they always will be. Just in case you don't know who they are, they are my mini zoo animals. Still don't get it? Nevermind, it's not important anyway... ...

24 September 2004, Friday

How much can one remember? I went out of the question when I wrote my compo today--hopefully, I can get a few marks because I didn't stray from the question totally...-_-

I know that 1K is keeping a kitten, and I got the chance to help in looking after it when I was in the girls' toilet. I know it's very hilarious, but I helped to clean up the mess this kitten made in its cage...Being a person with no experience in keeping pets, it's a wonder some think I have a pet at home! I'm used to cleaning up, so that's why I didn't mind the smell. (If you ask me, I would prefer this to perfume--perfume makes me feel like vomitting!)

Jeremy, for goodness sake, is still teasing me about me liking Roy. I mean, I only like him as a friend, and he is nice and we get along quite well (primary school classmates in some years...). I wonder why some people are so dirty-minded or their minds are not in the right place...I know, Yue Yang once said we "pair off well"... ...don't listen to him, he's full of lies...

23 September 2004, Thursday

Exams are coming in 2 weeks' time, and I've only started my revision?! How absurd! I must make it an effort to study more and work hard--I can't let the triple sciences and Geography Elective slip away from my hands like that... ...

I worry about my Science, Maths, Chinese and Lit.--they are always worrying me and killing more cells than the other subjects. Well, if I don't get at least 70 for Maths, Science and my average, I'll be packing my bags and going off to double sciences...I can't stand Lit. and History, that's why my first choice is Triple Sciences and Geog. elec!

I wonder why I don't miss people easily--when dad went to Korea, I didn't miss him that much; when the sec 4s left band, I didn't miss them that much; when I left CKP, I didn't miss my teachers and friends that much, so I think, when I leave 2E, I doubt I will miss my class much. I really wonder why. Am I an unnerving person? A cold person? A mental divergent? I really seem so cut-off, so quiet, so anti-social, living in a world of my own...

19 September 2004, Sunday

Dad has flown to Korea for some training (or whatever) for 1 week last night. Because I slept at around 12 am, I spent every free time I could in school sleeping. I was a little sick though, so I missed nearly 4 periods in the sick bay, starting from the first period. I don't really know why I cried--I just know I'm really tired now, and I haven't finished my portfolio assignment 3 (I just got my lit. book today, and the homework is due on Wednesday!) yet! I found myself not myself now, always doing my homework halfway nowadays. I used to be very fast in doing homework, but now, sleep is catching up on me...

Confused...

I don't really know what to choose for my subject combinations, but I'm very clear that I want to take Triple Science and Geography Elective. If I can't get in...Triple + History elective or Chemistry + Physics, Geography + Lit. elective... ...

I'm really bored, and I felt like drawing instead of doing mindmaps for Geography, so I just took out my trusty pencil and began drawing a picture of a puppy. Hey, the outcome is a masterpiece, and I'm really proud of it! Should I draw a kitten next? Haha...I'm just so fanatic about animals...

Well, Grandmother is leaving for Hainan Island tomorrow (she was born there.), and Dad is leaving for a business trip to Korea too. Wow, two trips to the Changi Airport to enjoy the cool air-conditioning! What a great way to save electricity at home...hehe...=)

I'm off now! Hey, I'm moving on to grade 7, how fast time flies, and I'm catching up on people...=p

Sick...

I've been having a runny nose since Monday, and I've been taking afternoon naps since Monday...the symptoms of being sick are catching on me--continuous runny nose, slight drowsiness, sleeping in class...

Ms Sia told us that Clinton has got dengue fever, and is hospitalised in CGH I think., no wonder he hasn't been in school since Monday... I really hope he gets well soon, not like me, getting sick on the first day of school...Now the weather is so gloomy, and my flu is no better, and there's tests and spelling tomorrow...
I think I can't concentrate now, and exams are coming! I must make it an effort to get well and start studying--triple sciences and Geography elective for sec 3 is my target. 70% average, Maths and Science, 65% English and 60% Geography...I worry about the 70% ones most...

September 11. Esplanade Concert later

I'm now listening to Pachelbel's Canon In D from this website, guess I'm always a fan of this song, I 've always loved songs in minor keys, songs with a touch of sadness, slow and soothing music...=) This are the websites: http://www2.cs.uh.edu/~wjin/music/canon.html
http://dialspace.dial.pipex.com/prod/dialspace/town/drive/yax72/pachelbel/
I'm feeling rather bored today, how I wished the teachers could give more homework to do...at least it's better than sitting down and staring at an open textbook when everything goes in and comes out...(I didn't even bother to open my textbook, let alone flip through...)

Think I've got to go now, band's at 3.

10 September 2004, Friday

The SSO concert was great, but too many strings, very few people in winds and brass sections, only 3 percussionists, and it's not even the full orchestra...both Yue Yang and I agreed that bands are better. Hey, the movie Drumline is really a good movie (I mean, how many people can play the drum so quickly and in rhythm? And even the military bands are in dance forms when taking part in competitions!)...

You think you are so great and all, but let me tell you this--with your sarcastic tone like this, it's enough to piss people off and even make people cry...I used to think you are nice and friendly, but now, I've seen your true colours--you are totally two-sided. For yesterday, you are a complete JERK. I've never called people jerks before, but for that day, I'm making it an exception. I hope it's the first and last time I'm saying that word, and I don't want it to happen again. So what if you are in the ***, so what if you are the **, it doesn't pay to put people off with your sarcastic unfriendliness. I have not flared up for ages, and I just want to say, with your lousy attitude like that, it's enough to piss people off. Your section is unhappy with you, I know, so please try to be more understanding towards others' feelings.

I'm sorry for that paragraph of reprimands, but this particular person was the reason I cried. I WILL NOT say who, but I hope that this person can change his attitude. Even a person like me who forgives people easily can be put off by this ignorant attitude. I have been through a lot of things considering people's attitude, and have realised that this world isn't meant for me. What world is meant for me, I won't say, but I think you might know...

9 September 2004. Moody...

Happy Birthday, Hiang Ling!

I'm feeling very moody; please don't disturb me, leave me to my own thoughts... ...I was already VERY patient with Wei Xian, for a long time, but today, he tested my patience. I was really pissed off (I can't find a better word.) when I taught the Whenever Wherever song. He kept making the same mistakes, and I had been clapping the beat until my hands are RED and SORE... ...Wei Xian, if you are reading this, I'm sorry I sound angry, but I really want you to do well for the upcoming concerts. Please make it an effort to improve on your tonguing--we won't be there to help you for ever, and I may not be the next SL to help you...

7 September, Tuesday. Totally flunked.

I think, if I get a merit for my ABRSM Grade 6 Practical Exam today, I'll be over the moon...I think I must have flunked it--I stumbled over my 3rd piece, I made mistakes in my Bb minor melodic scale, section D of my aural was really bad (I couldn't get my rhythm right--how do you expect my to clap a trill?), the sight-singing...at least I managed not to feel nervous at all...

Well, I guess, what is over is over, no use thinking about it. I'm now very troubled over something, which I don't really want to say--something to do with band...

Er...one last thing, how do you add a midi to the blog?

6 September, Monday

Right, tomorrow is D-Day--the day for my ABRSM Grade 6 practical exam. I'm aiming for another merit to keep the "tradition" running (that means, no failures nor just passes.), so...my target is 150/150! =) Haha

One day to D-Day, how fast, and I don't think I'm fully prepared yet...I think I'll report to you about my performance for the exam some time...I'm desperately in need of sleep now--I'm really too tired to think of other things, guess I shall have a troubled sleep...good night...

First Day of September Hols

Wow, holidays are here! But I need to think of a suitable title for my poem--this poem is one of the worst I've ever created, if people find it good, then I think you need to replenish your brain cells...=] sorry for this sarcasm...

Oh, now I know who is Jeremy's crush--he told me during break today. I shan't say who, after all, I don't want to break the trust. Haha, anyway, I am really in need to brush up my scales and pieces--it's very good already, but I tend to make tiny mistakes and if this continues to happen...I don't want to end up just passing my ABRSM practical exam, not when my aural is going to pull me down...

Ah well, I'm going to a Science Carnival at Suntec City later,it's going to be fun! Musical instruments, mind-reading, biology etc., I'ld love it! Science is so interesting, but animals are still top of my list as always! :) Haha, I think I must do my poem now, so long!

Last day of Term 3

I've just listened to the online midi of Pachelbel's Canon In D, and now I'm now listening to Enya's song. Her songs are so soothing, I don't understand why Bryan finds her voice eerie...haha...

I do have homework to do, but I've finished most of it, except for the lit. poem-->what does it mean by "from abuse to euphoria and anything in between"? I'm still trying to figure out...I have a good poem in mind, but until I figure out what the theme is. =)

Anyway, we had band today, and we sight-read Iris, The Nineties, Warabe Uta Fantasy (???), Habitat. I was so amused by the tuba score of Iris that I couldn't help laughing--trills, demi-semi quavers, semi-quavers etc. are definitely rare in tuba scores; most are found in woodwind scores...But it's a nice song, if only we can play it well...

Haha, Jeremy now has a crush on another girl (for respect of his privacy, I'm not saying who is this "lucky" girl. Not me that is...). I bet you that some time later, he will like another girl and "history repeats itself".=) Sorry for laughing, hehe...=D

I'll be back some other day. Right now, I must get to my poem, or my homework will never be completed by Monday...