Holidays are HERE

First day of holidays, and I've finished one of my homework. Haha, now I'm kind of wondering how to get to the class chalet on Wednesday (I'm not staying overnight.), because I forgot to ask what is the chalet number yesterday...so do you think I should go or not? I've paid $12 for it, but I don't really know the number, how to find them? Unless I'm sick on that day, I have to go...

I'm now researching on Classical period music for my essay, so after I finish it, consider my 2nd homework done. =p Hey, Wei Rui is going to her class chalet at Costa Sands, I forgot she once mentioned that. Well, have fun there, pal!

I've got to check whether there's any homework at More@once, bye!

Last day of school

Today is the last day of school, and I'm now resting my sore and blistered feet while attacking the keyboard in front of me. I wore the court shoes and later the rollerblades--it'll be a miracle if I didn't get sore feet...

Today's performance was quite good, though I noted that we didn't really follow Mr Chua's rhythm at first though we caught up after one bar...haha...Well, there's only two holiday homework for me--Chinese and Music. A miracle, ever since we were loaded with homework last year... Social Studies? No group, so I don't have to do, even if it means losing this CA mark which isn't much big deal anyway... (I'm trying to be optimistic here, so please do not be sarcastic and bombard me with critism in my tagboard...)

I'm now halfway through my Chinese homework. With luck, I'll have finished all my homework by the end of next Friday. I'm not as lazy as what you might think, especially when it comes to homework. I suffer before I enjoy, get it? And, I improved tremendously! From last in class in Semester 1, I jump more than 10 positions to be somewhere... =p Even my level average improved a lot. I'm so elated, but ow...my feet hurt a lot too...-_-

2nd last day of school

Now, I have another deep secret to keep for someone, and like I've promised, I shall and will not reveal it to anyone. Haha, today's rollerblading was fun, though my ankles felt as if I'm still rollerblading... =)

Today, the students from New Zealand arrived at AHS, and I certainly enjoyed laughing at the all-too familiar Maori war-dance. Not at the dance, at Zhong Ting. I couldn't see Jeremy, and Wei Theng was doing it rather well... ...(*haha* =p still funny) Seeing Zhong Ting doing this war-dance is totally unexpected as he isn't the kind to do it...haha...hope he enjoyed the bombs yesterday! =p

Triple Science or Double Science isn't important to me; what's important is that I have vowed to do well for Sec 3 next year, and I have set targets for myself to achieve it. I've already lost that CA mark for social studies, I can't afford to lose any more marks concerning any subject...

Sorry...

I shall not apologise for the anguish I had unleashed just now, this will always be printed deeply in the bottom of my soul...I shall never forget it...

I played the second round for interclass competition for captain's ball against 2A. Wei Theng, you are a good player, just don't overdo yourself and injure yourself alright...you slipped and fell on the wet ground, you accidentally banged into me when playing against 2C (I was standing outside court and holding my book.)...but good game. Haha, the 2A captain was really good, and Quan Heng still sucks... I was on the court because I could defend well (too exaggerating to say that no one could beat me in defending, Qi Qin...). I can't defend if the ball is too high, chances are, I will hit the captain behind me. I've done it a good too many times...-_-

I've applied for the GCE 'O' Levels music course, at least I can tackle my aural which has questions about the style of music... I've gotten back my results for Grade 6 today--a Merit! Yeah, exactly a Merit, I've been keeping the tradition since Grade 4...hehe...

WHY???

Can you believe that I'm actually crying now as I write this? I've cried for nearly the whole morning, because I was so full of unhappiness. I've been rejected by Hui Xian's and Philine's groups--because "we have enough people", "we have already started researching". 4 people is called "enough people", I wonder how good their Maths is...I'm not trying to be sarcastic here, but since they didn't want to accept me, they are the cause that I lose my CA mark for SS. I don't have any group, I can't do the project, and I might as well not do it! Even if I do, it'll be for nothing.

I kept saying, "I don't care, and I don't want to care anymore... ... Forget it, just forget about this CA mark!" when I wept. I really do not want to care about my academic anymore. It isn't important...it really isn't important to me anymore... ...IT ISN'T IMPORTANT TO ME ANYMORE!!!!! WHY? WHY ME? WHY AM I ALWAYS THE OUTCAST? WHY AM I BORN INTO THIS WORLD? THIS WORLD ISN'T MEANT FOR ME, I DO NOT BELONG TO THIS WORLD!!!!! I DON'T!!!!!!! WHY AM I ALWAYS THE LONELY OUTCAST WANDERING ABOUT THIS PITIFUL WORLD WITH FEW AIMS? WHY? WHY? WHY?

Last week of term 4

I hate social studies! This research coming up is a big headache for me, especially since only groups of 4 or 5 is allowed. Now, you may ask, what's the big deal, but it's because: 1) I want to do alone, 2) I doubt I'll find a group to work in, 3) Other than groups of 4 or 5, no group numbers will be accepted, 4) It counts as a CA mark. How much trouble can this cause me when I'm such a independent loner? It means I'm going to lose a CA mark, and you know how much I depend on my assignments to help me do well academically... I may just say, fine, who cares about a CA mark, even if you do alone, it can't be accepted anyway, but I'm afraid of getting into trouble, and I'm already very troubled. No one really seems to care about working with me...how I wish I have dengue fever so that I can stop worrying about this...a dengue fever that will never recover...I know it's very silly of me to think of contracting a deadly disease when nothing goes my way, but if I don't get a group to work with, I'm going to fall into depression just like that. I think I'm on my way to depression now... ...

22 October 2004, Friday

No school today, but I have band at 1.30pm. Well, my results suck, especially Science and Chinese. The Science wasn't to our expectations--so many failures, and the level average was very low. I was lucky to have passed all the subjects, though my hopes of getting to Triple Science have flown away...

Rollerblading was fun. I learnt how to do a heel-stop, and the turn-in, turn-out. I tried a backskate unsuccessfully, but nevermind, I can practise any time since I've got my own rollerblades. =) I can't wait for the next lesson to learn more styles!

Wild, Wild Wet!!!!

I'll just summarise the whole events for the past few days. On Friday, I went to Kinokuniya to read books and bought one--Lassie Come-Home (I'm totally devoted to animal stories!!!). The Chinese paper will fail me, I bet... On Saturday, there was band, and the attendance was PATHETIC. So many people didn't turn up (my section was full.), trombone section had only Poline and Vanessa (Yu Sheng was sick for the whole week, according to Andy. Hey, just get well soon and go and help your section, Yu Sheng!) etc.

On Sunday, we celebrated Grandfather's birthday. I watched "The Exorcist: The Beginning"(VCD), and I shall not deny that it is one of the most frightening shows I've ever watched. A possessed boy controlling the wolves to tear a boy apart (who has taken his spade), this possessed man who killed himself by slitting his own throat, and this lead actress was also possessed and looked like a living zombie who can climb walls like Spiderman (just for a joke.) =p The hero? A priest who is faithful to God. He even got rid of the evil spirit from the possessed lady and boy by reading scripts from the bible and holding out a cross and sprinkling holy water. The boy survived, but the lady died. Strangely enough, I didn't get nightmares. (I'm not prone to nightmares even after reading or watching horror stories.)

On Monday, I went to Wild, Wild Wet. It's fun, especially 'Ular-lar'. Haha, I want to go there again, or perhaps Escape Theme park, when I go to family chalets during the holidays.

English

English was managable, though I spent the last 45 minutes doing my summary. The first draft was the first time I've exceeded the word limit (I've never exceeded any word limits at all.). And, D&T was so full of nonsensical scribbles that if I can score at least a 70, I'll be over the moon...

Haha, I walked home with Jeremy--he cycled while I took the bus to Eastpoint then continued walking. (We're just friends, and anyway, he already has a crush on another girl.)Well, I saw a lot of cats which made me happy (and for goodness sake, cats aren't anything to be scared of!), and what's more, tomorrow is the last paper to sit for! But only if I pass my Chinese, I won't be happy just yet....

I may seem very joyful today, but actually, deep down, I feel really sad. I won't say why, but I know there is a reason behind this. Whatever you do, you must have a reason, or what you do is worthless. I know, that's why I say there is a reason for this sinking feeling deep down...

English Literature

I spent the whole of 2 hours completing my paper and adding to the finishing touches. My reward? An aching hand and stained palm. I don't know what to say about the paper, all I can say is, I'm happy if I can get 54/70 for the paper...

All the same, I shouldn't be blogging in here, so I shall wait till Friday before I update again. I want to spend the time revising my Chinese thoroughly for Friday's paper. Oh, I forgot, Jeryl told me that there is band on Saturday at 8am, so much for wanting and planning to watch television on Saturday... I feel like taking a break after the exams, why must they tire us out for Saturday's band practice? -_-

Science

I'm now fuming at "silent's" tag (I know it is Wei Theng, unless my guess is wrong...). I never use other's names to tag on any tagboard, and now, my name 'kt' is used by some other fakes, *smoke coming out from ears*, I'm changing to 'kris' now. Who dares to use that name of mine shall be proscecuted immediately without any further ado...I'm sick and tired of people calling me a fake for no apparent reason, and if this goes on, I might as well start locking myself at home and finish up my holiday homework in 10 days' time and scare others for leaving their homework till the last minute... If I say I can do it, I really can do it, and I'll prove it to you. Before band practice starts during the holidays, I would have completed all my homework and start reading up on the encyclopedia for more information on nature...

I know I sound really insane, but I do mean it. People just take me for granted, as if I am a piece of rag ready to be discarded any time. Well, I'ld like to say, this piece of rag is useful, and since you've thrown it away, don't come whining in agony that you shouldn't have thrown it away when you need one to do your job... ...I just detest people who take me for granted, and well, if something happens to me, don't go crying your heart out and complain to heaven and earth, go and find some other useful person and remember not to take him/ her for granted! I think some people just never change... ...

8 October 2004, Saturday

I had a most exhilarating time playing table-tennis with Wei Rui, Yi Shu, Cheryl, Darren and Aloysius yesterday in the evening. Well, at first we played singles (me and Wei Rui, Yi Shu and Cheryl, Darren and Aloysius), then we switched to doubles. Haha, let me tell ou how we took turns--for singles, once someone who is playing loses, it's the mext pair's turn. Well, even when we couldn't get the ball across the net, our turn is over...haha, once, when Wei Rui was serving, I was really blur and forgot that it was my turn, thus when I saw the ball landing on the floor, then I realised that... -_-

As for doubles, it's the same, but only when one pair loses to the opponents then their turn is over. Like I said, many times we played out, and sometimes couldn't get the ball across the net...It was the most ridiculous game of table-tennis I've ever played, but there are advantages--everyone gets a turn to play, we save waiting time, and we have fun at the same time. =p Haha, Wei Rui has an admirer from her CCA-- Rayrin from 2F, bass (jump from alto to tenor to bass...voice breaking...). Haha, I always know that she definitely will have some guy liking her... =p

Maths

The Maths paper was easier than I had expected (and I had expected it to be tough and challenging...), and I'm confident of scoring at least a B3 (again. I don't dare to aim too high and get a hard blow when I get my results back...). I managed to finish paper one 5 minutes before time's up, and paper two 15 minutes before time's up, whereas for mid-year's paper, I only finished both just on time...

Got to go now, bye!

Geography

No, it's not the last time, I just sneaked in here since no one's at home, though I won't be long. Oh, the Geography paper wasn't tough unlike what Ms Kartini had said, so I guess she said that just to scare us and make us work harder...I'm confident of scoring at least a B3, and also, the mapwork wasn't difficult at all--I didn't spend my time locating the countries on the world map I have at home for nothing, all right! My sister and I also quizzed each other to find places on the map, and I especially love to locate places in Europe (some are so small that the font size was minute...). Haha, like I said, Geography is my best and favourite humanities subject. =p

Ow...my shoulder, arm and back muscles hurt too much. Ever since I carried 3 chairs to the stadium and one table back to class, my left arm was trembling, my back hurts, and now my shoulders hurt. My arms felt stiff and I suspiciously thought they bulged a little when I relax my biceps...(go and study the muscular system if you want to know why I say 'relax the biceps' when I bend my elbows...)

Better go now, I need to attack my Maths before mum comes back. Adios.

Exams coming

Exams are arriving in 2 days' time, so today may be the last time I'm blogging in here until my exams are over. Hope I get in Triple Sciences... ...I worry about my Maths, Science, English, Lit and Chinese--I can't afford to get below B for my Chineseand Lit, and below A for the rest. If so, my hopes are dashed...but I mustn't give up--even if I get into double Sciences, at least I can still read up on Biology on my own...

So long now, this is where I will end. Wish me all the best for the exams!

Revision...

Today is 3 October 2004, Sunday, and I haven't started attacking my idioms 91 to 180 for tomorrow's spelling yet. Ha, am I able to finish 90 idioms in one day? I don't know, and even if I can, everything just goes in and comes out. I do not have a great mind for remembering Chinese vocabulary and phrases, but I do have a great memory for remembering names of animals (and I read everything from the encyclopedia and non-fiction books on animals.). =) Haha, my plants are not so great, and as for human body... ... ... ... hey, what do you think, that I suck? You've got me wrong---I'm just good in it. (Good, not great...)

Got to go now, I'm watching television at 9am, at 10:30am, at 11am, and at 7pm. Haha, watching too much television a day instead of studying is not good for me, especially since exams are coming, but I'm going to finish my Geography revision after reading the workbook, then start attacking my idioms, so...any problems? If not, then bye!