http://archiveofourown.org/works/598364/chapters/1112479
MUKKUN ON THE PIANO. EXCUSE ME WHILE I SQUEAL INTO MY PILLOW AND ROLL AROUND. AND HIMURO.
Mukkun...on the piano.....OTL Please don't kill my brain cells I need them......
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Oh shit.
Sara's picture.
It IS Mukkun.
Oh no
I'm dying.
And thinking if I can do a good job with Mukkun too. Because of my features, I may turn out like Sara's Mukkun, all sharp angles. I know I can definitely pull off Kise and Midorima, that's why I'm quite uncertain about how I will look as Mukkun. Himuro was better than I expected, or maybe because my impression of him was attractive in a handsome way. The pretty boy is Kise. Akashi will be an aristocratically beautiful.
Monday, December 31, 2012
http://www.pixiv.net/member_illust.php?mode=manga&illust_id=31262590
No thanks to Daikon. She's on Gokai high and is spamming me with Gokai doujins because she craves her Gokai OT4 Basco/Mabe/Joe/Sid.
I like this OT4 too, but Mabe bottoms. XD
Gokaiger feels dammit >.>
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http://www.cutoutandkeep.net/projects/diy-removable-shoe-wings
Yes I will make this for CNY. I figured, I will have different themes each year. 2012's was because, Ankh. XD
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Oh shit, Sara, who is that on your new dp? If it's Mukkun then excuse me while I (try to) calm myself down. If it's Gakupo or any other character I will feel cheated and I rest my case.
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Yes I will cosplay Dark!Joe. Yes I am complaining about his accessories.
Yes baka musume I want my CF pictures (because changing my dp to the Joe-wearing-Marvelous'-cloak might be amusing. Plus I like that picture. Plus, I am quite pleased with my Joe cosplay for CF.)
No thanks to Daikon. She's on Gokai high and is spamming me with Gokai doujins because she craves her Gokai OT4 Basco/Mabe/Joe/Sid.
I like this OT4 too, but Mabe bottoms. XD
Gokaiger feels dammit >.>
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http://www.cutoutandkeep.net/projects/diy-removable-shoe-wings
Yes I will make this for CNY. I figured, I will have different themes each year. 2012's was because, Ankh. XD
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Oh shit, Sara, who is that on your new dp? If it's Mukkun then excuse me while I (try to) calm myself down. If it's Gakupo or any other character I will feel cheated and I rest my case.
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Yes I will cosplay Dark!Joe. Yes I am complaining about his accessories.
Yes baka musume I want my CF pictures (because changing my dp to the Joe-wearing-Marvelous'-cloak might be amusing. Plus I like that picture. Plus, I am quite pleased with my Joe cosplay for CF.)
Saturday, December 29, 2012
Aion.
I'm tempted to play the game. But not now.
The costumes are too elaborate and will definitely bleed our wallets dry.
I'm eyeing Bard
http://na.aiononline.com/news/announcements/massive-preview-new-gear-coming-aion-40
Blonde with red outfit.
Source: http://images.geeknative.com.s3.amazonaws.com/geeknative.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/12/Aion_Screenshot_05.jpg
Look at this. THE WINGS.
I might make the wings in mini form, out of crepe paper and rice paper and what not, and attach them to my laced shoes/boots. Yes I want to make wings and attach them to my boots. Maybe I'll do that for CNY XD
I'm tempted to play the game. But not now.
The costumes are too elaborate and will definitely bleed our wallets dry.
I'm eyeing Bard
http://na.aiononline.com/news/announcements/massive-preview-new-gear-coming-aion-40
Blonde with red outfit.
Source: http://images.geeknative.com.s3.amazonaws.com/geeknative.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/12/Aion_Screenshot_05.jpg
Look at this. THE WINGS.
I might make the wings in mini form, out of crepe paper and rice paper and what not, and attach them to my laced shoes/boots. Yes I want to make wings and attach them to my boots. Maybe I'll do that for CNY XD
I finally watched the ending of K.
礼尊
尊礼
Both ways are fine.
And excuse me how can you NOT ship the two kings??!! They are my number one shipping in K Project - SaruMi and WhiteXBlack are nothing compared to RedXBlue. Well, I certainly won't mind if it's WeismannXKuroh because both are my favourite characters (yes I'm a hopeless fan of Weismann the original bishie with almost 1.8m hair. And sadly I can actually cos both Weismann AND Kuroh.)
Yeah, the ending was sad, but like I said, compared to Neji's death, everything else pales. I'm not so sure of a season 2 for K, coz honestly I have no idea what the plot for K is until now. All I know is, Shiro supposedly killed Totsuka from HOMRA, and now Scepter 4 and HOMRA are looking for him (Scepter 4 because they're like the justice upholders so of course they want to find the murderer). Black Dog Kuroh wants to find him in the name of his previous master, Ichigen-sama the late Mishigi no Ou. But Shiro proclaims his innocence and blah blah blah. Now we know the true culprit is the formless Mishigi no Ou (huh, does that mean the Kings are selected by some kind of power?) who wants to kill all the kings and become the one and only.
I don't even know why Mikoto and Reisi are fighting.
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Anyway Korea grad trip next year has been settled for 20 May to 30 May, because I was being a troublesome bastard who can't abandon my students and take 2 consecutive leaves off. The make-up lessons are a pain in the ass, especially when I still have to give make-up lessons in July (Cosfest). I must land myself a full-time job before July so that I can show everyone grades don't matter, and hopefully clear leave for a December Japan trip because COMIKET. (Why do I get the feeling that all my clearing of leaves will be related to overseas holiday and cosplay?)
Another reason is because I want to go Japan with Silk in mid-June (about 7 days or so, and hopefully it falls during my school's holiday so I don't need to take leave), and I need some time to make props and get stuff for Yue. I don't think I have the time to finish Suppi's costume in time for Cosfest, but I will turn up for photoshoot which I believe is more important? Plus Hades and Dark's outfit....er....I've no idea how to settle Dark's outfit. Yeah, main reason for going Japan is to get Yue's shoes, toku movie DVDs, Gokaiger (joeXmabe, general) + Kurobasu (general kiseki + kagami, himuroXkagami, kisekiXkagami, kisekasa) + RedXBlue (max 2) doujins, and of course Mukkun keychain.
礼尊
尊礼
Both ways are fine.
And excuse me how can you NOT ship the two kings??!! They are my number one shipping in K Project - SaruMi and WhiteXBlack are nothing compared to RedXBlue. Well, I certainly won't mind if it's WeismannXKuroh because both are my favourite characters (yes I'm a hopeless fan of Weismann the original bishie with almost 1.8m hair. And sadly I can actually cos both Weismann AND Kuroh.)
Yeah, the ending was sad, but like I said, compared to Neji's death, everything else pales. I'm not so sure of a season 2 for K, coz honestly I have no idea what the plot for K is until now. All I know is, Shiro supposedly killed Totsuka from HOMRA, and now Scepter 4 and HOMRA are looking for him (Scepter 4 because they're like the justice upholders so of course they want to find the murderer). Black Dog Kuroh wants to find him in the name of his previous master, Ichigen-sama the late Mishigi no Ou. But Shiro proclaims his innocence and blah blah blah. Now we know the true culprit is the formless Mishigi no Ou (huh, does that mean the Kings are selected by some kind of power?) who wants to kill all the kings and become the one and only.
I don't even know why Mikoto and Reisi are fighting.
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Anyway Korea grad trip next year has been settled for 20 May to 30 May, because I was being a troublesome bastard who can't abandon my students and take 2 consecutive leaves off. The make-up lessons are a pain in the ass, especially when I still have to give make-up lessons in July (Cosfest). I must land myself a full-time job before July so that I can show everyone grades don't matter, and hopefully clear leave for a December Japan trip because COMIKET. (Why do I get the feeling that all my clearing of leaves will be related to overseas holiday and cosplay?)
Another reason is because I want to go Japan with Silk in mid-June (about 7 days or so, and hopefully it falls during my school's holiday so I don't need to take leave), and I need some time to make props and get stuff for Yue. I don't think I have the time to finish Suppi's costume in time for Cosfest, but I will turn up for photoshoot which I believe is more important? Plus Hades and Dark's outfit....er....I've no idea how to settle Dark's outfit. Yeah, main reason for going Japan is to get Yue's shoes, toku movie DVDs, Gokaiger (joeXmabe, general) + Kurobasu (general kiseki + kagami, himuroXkagami, kisekiXkagami, kisekasa) + RedXBlue (max 2) doujins, and of course Mukkun keychain.
So, Mikoto the Red King died. (So did Weismann I heard) I haven't watched yet - tumblr spoiled me - but honestly, I was indifferent as when Neji died. Nothing can beat the sudden demise of an almost-decade crush, favourite character or not.
My favourite characters have died. Look at Sgaile. Look at Neji. Look at Weismann. But Neji. He will always have a place in my broken heart.
But I heard that it was Mikoto's words to Anna that made it sad.
RedXBlue ftw. Even my tumblr dashboard background is MikotoXReisi. Now excuse me while I go dig out fanfics related to them......
My favourite characters have died. Look at Sgaile. Look at Neji. Look at Weismann. But Neji. He will always have a place in my broken heart.
But I heard that it was Mikoto's words to Anna that made it sad.
RedXBlue ftw. Even my tumblr dashboard background is MikotoXReisi. Now excuse me while I go dig out fanfics related to them......
Friday, December 28, 2012
Screwed sanity
My mind is a screwed up mess right now. And I'm not talking about the usual screwed up mess - I'm talking about something bordering mental disorder.
Everyone says it's good to talk to someone and not bottle things up. I agree to a certain extent. Unfortunately I don't see the point if some of the problems concern them. I don't see the point if people ask you "Are you alright?" and you're expected to say, "I'm fine." but you actually aren't? What's the point if you break the norm and yell, "OBVIOUSLY NOT CAN'T YOU SEE HOW BAD MY MOOD IS RIGHT NOW?" and bring up a whole lot of shitstorm that dampens the mood and afterward all sorts of discussion happen behind your back about how lousy your personality is and how you need to change.
I'm sorry if I'm not a model person. I don't have to change my personality because you find something displeasing. I can change my behaviour but I will not change my underlying personality. I can say to myself "Suck it up, asshat, you gotta live with it whether you like it or not." but sadly, that applies only to people I'm not close with. It's a whole different matter if I try hard to please others and end up feeling disgusted with myself, because, what the hell am I doing and who am I doing it for? Live with it, I never said nor implied I'm a nice person.
What good would it do if I tell you all the problems eating at my mental health, then ignore me afterward and leave me to walk alone when I think I need someone to pull me back from the depths of hell? I won't even say you're pretending to care - I'm not that selfish because I know you genuinely care, but in my opinion, I'd rather not have said anything at all. All I need is someone to stay with me and keep me company until I say "Thanks." No words need be spoken. Don't say anything. Don't ask if I'm alright; I'm obviously not. Times like this is when I need company. Otherwise, I'd rather have gone home since there be no difference whether I'm in a group but I feel alone, or when I join a crowd of strangers.
What good would it do if I spoil the mood just because I'm irritated by people's actions and behaviour? What good would it do if I say I now find long tables an eyesore because conversations that occur in the center exclude those sitting on other ends? What good would it do if I comment on how people fill out seats? What good would it do if I don't apologise for teasing/annoying couples or back up people who say things like "Oh, just nice a separate table for two for the couple.", because, well, it IS true you are a couple, and second, we can't do anything if you want to be in your own world and exclude the rest. Back when you were single you get annoyed at attached friends doing that "in-their-own-world" thing. I'm sorry, you don't realise you're doing the same to the rest of us, even if it's to a lesser extent.
I didn't say anything because no one else seems to care. Just, I won't apologise because, face it, it's the truth. We don't often tease.
What good would it do if I go on outings and no one tells me of the time change, hence making me wait aimlessly until I realise everything is on Whatsapp? What good would it do if I enforce that I absolutely abhor waiting for more than half hour for people to show their faces (I don't want to see your ass) because your sense of time is so screwed I'll consider going home because I know I'll reach home by the time you reach the meeting place? I know I underestimate time on occasion, but honestly, if I am late for 15 minutes and you aren't around still, there is something wrong. What good would it do if you tell me you'll be late AFTER I've reached the meeting location because something last minute cropped up? If I've something to do I won't be so pissed off. And honestly, no amount of threats and pleadings will change anything, if it even goes through your thick head at all. If I am more irritable now it's only because now I'm running on borrowed time and I don't have time to wait for Your Highness as if your lateness is justified. Do you think I was this stringent about time before I reached my final year?
What good would it do if I say, no matter how much people make up to me (if they ever do so. Honestly, I'm way past caring whether they owe me or not. I'll make it a lifelong debt, and I don't want people to owe me and vice versa), I can never forget how I was left behind and no one noticed? You may forget; I won't. It's too bitter a memory to forget. Add to the fact I nearly died twice recently, plus FYP stress, grad trip stress, cosplans stress, and me nitpicking at everything because of the accumulated stress, it's more than enough to screw one's sanity over and beyond.
Everyone says it's good to talk to someone and not bottle things up. I agree to a certain extent. Unfortunately I don't see the point if some of the problems concern them. I don't see the point if people ask you "Are you alright?" and you're expected to say, "I'm fine." but you actually aren't? What's the point if you break the norm and yell, "OBVIOUSLY NOT CAN'T YOU SEE HOW BAD MY MOOD IS RIGHT NOW?" and bring up a whole lot of shitstorm that dampens the mood and afterward all sorts of discussion happen behind your back about how lousy your personality is and how you need to change.
I'm sorry if I'm not a model person. I don't have to change my personality because you find something displeasing. I can change my behaviour but I will not change my underlying personality. I can say to myself "Suck it up, asshat, you gotta live with it whether you like it or not." but sadly, that applies only to people I'm not close with. It's a whole different matter if I try hard to please others and end up feeling disgusted with myself, because, what the hell am I doing and who am I doing it for? Live with it, I never said nor implied I'm a nice person.
What good would it do if I tell you all the problems eating at my mental health, then ignore me afterward and leave me to walk alone when I think I need someone to pull me back from the depths of hell? I won't even say you're pretending to care - I'm not that selfish because I know you genuinely care, but in my opinion, I'd rather not have said anything at all. All I need is someone to stay with me and keep me company until I say "Thanks." No words need be spoken. Don't say anything. Don't ask if I'm alright; I'm obviously not. Times like this is when I need company. Otherwise, I'd rather have gone home since there be no difference whether I'm in a group but I feel alone, or when I join a crowd of strangers.
What good would it do if I spoil the mood just because I'm irritated by people's actions and behaviour? What good would it do if I say I now find long tables an eyesore because conversations that occur in the center exclude those sitting on other ends? What good would it do if I comment on how people fill out seats? What good would it do if I don't apologise for teasing/annoying couples or back up people who say things like "Oh, just nice a separate table for two for the couple.", because, well, it IS true you are a couple, and second, we can't do anything if you want to be in your own world and exclude the rest. Back when you were single you get annoyed at attached friends doing that "in-their-own-world" thing. I'm sorry, you don't realise you're doing the same to the rest of us, even if it's to a lesser extent.
I didn't say anything because no one else seems to care. Just, I won't apologise because, face it, it's the truth. We don't often tease.
What good would it do if I go on outings and no one tells me of the time change, hence making me wait aimlessly until I realise everything is on Whatsapp? What good would it do if I enforce that I absolutely abhor waiting for more than half hour for people to show their faces (I don't want to see your ass) because your sense of time is so screwed I'll consider going home because I know I'll reach home by the time you reach the meeting place? I know I underestimate time on occasion, but honestly, if I am late for 15 minutes and you aren't around still, there is something wrong. What good would it do if you tell me you'll be late AFTER I've reached the meeting location because something last minute cropped up? If I've something to do I won't be so pissed off. And honestly, no amount of threats and pleadings will change anything, if it even goes through your thick head at all. If I am more irritable now it's only because now I'm running on borrowed time and I don't have time to wait for Your Highness as if your lateness is justified. Do you think I was this stringent about time before I reached my final year?
What good would it do if I say, no matter how much people make up to me (if they ever do so. Honestly, I'm way past caring whether they owe me or not. I'll make it a lifelong debt, and I don't want people to owe me and vice versa), I can never forget how I was left behind and no one noticed? You may forget; I won't. It's too bitter a memory to forget. Add to the fact I nearly died twice recently, plus FYP stress, grad trip stress, cosplans stress, and me nitpicking at everything because of the accumulated stress, it's more than enough to screw one's sanity over and beyond.
Thursday, December 27, 2012
Simply Neji
Watching Naruto SD is lightening my mood a lot. Naruto and Lee trying to compete with Neji, even dick size. I....nevermind....
Buff Neji. Host Neji. Short-haired Neji. Neji in a dress. Neji with pigtails. Neji being an idiot.
Simply Neji.
Buff Neji. Host Neji. Short-haired Neji. Neji in a dress. Neji with pigtails. Neji being an idiot.
Simply Neji.
I'm too drained to feel any kind of emotion. Just an empty feeling and weariness, the kind where you close your eyes, spread your arms and go "Come what may". Like you're accepting fate.
Will everything be back to normal?
What normal. My life has no definition of normal.
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A nice American pair brofic to lighten my mood, even if a little.
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Changed the header picture. I decided I needed a change. Someday I will learn photoshop, then I can manipulate the designs and all. For now, I'll stick with whatever tools I have.
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Changed the header picture. I decided I needed a change. Someday I will learn photoshop, then I can manipulate the designs and all. For now, I'll stick with whatever tools I have.
My roly-poly current life
I, will take a break from meeting anyone and concentrate on doing my work. Right now, I don't care if they talk behind my back. I don't care what they discuss/gossip about me. I don't care if I offend anyone. I don't care if I bottle things up and make people worry. Sorry, I'm different. My issues are my own. There's no point saying out loud if no one can help me. There's no point saying out loud if nothing's going to change. It'll just a waste of effort and putting different parties in a sour mood.
Right now, I'm past caring. I'm slowly getting colder, neutral expression frozen in place. I'm quiet, almost bored.
My eyes are heavy. I'm weary, and distancing myself, going back to my lone wolf days.
Thank you for all the fun times, but right now, I'm too highly strung to think of anything but FYP progress. I even gave deadlines for when I should have all the information and pictures (January, so that I've time to set up a database and do the GUI and swipe views).
I turned off my phone. I would even consider deleting Whatsapp altogether because I don't use it often, and I don't see the point of wasting my battery life. Sometimes I want to use Facebook less, be notified only when I'm tagged in a post. I'm past feeling left out and all that useless shit of an emotion. Everything is my own fault. I'm the one who caused myself to feel as if my existence is but a lie, that my existence holds as little significance as the next stranger. Taken for granted. Dude, shouldn't this happen during the teenage years when you're undergoing this so-called rebellious stage, when you feel like the world owes you something?
Call this the young adult's stress-and-shitty-events-affecting-my-mood-and-appetite. That time when I measured 45kg on the weighing machine wasn't a joke or means to attract attention - it just showed how much weight I lost since everything started.
Hopefully when everything's over, I'll be at ease.
Go on, you can continue without me. You've already done that once without realising I wasn't around. I sure as hell can move on without you. Honestly, I never expected that particular incident to shake me up so badly that I'm still feeling bitter about it whenever I have urges to toss something out my window, be it the iPhone in my house, my textbooks or my laptop.
Bottling things up isn't good, but it keeps me alive. I don't see how or why I should tell others when they can't solve my own problems. It is a cruel reminder how effed up I find the world to be, and how much of a close book I am.
Right now, I'm past caring. I'm slowly getting colder, neutral expression frozen in place. I'm quiet, almost bored.
My eyes are heavy. I'm weary, and distancing myself, going back to my lone wolf days.
Thank you for all the fun times, but right now, I'm too highly strung to think of anything but FYP progress. I even gave deadlines for when I should have all the information and pictures (January, so that I've time to set up a database and do the GUI and swipe views).
I turned off my phone. I would even consider deleting Whatsapp altogether because I don't use it often, and I don't see the point of wasting my battery life. Sometimes I want to use Facebook less, be notified only when I'm tagged in a post. I'm past feeling left out and all that useless shit of an emotion. Everything is my own fault. I'm the one who caused myself to feel as if my existence is but a lie, that my existence holds as little significance as the next stranger. Taken for granted. Dude, shouldn't this happen during the teenage years when you're undergoing this so-called rebellious stage, when you feel like the world owes you something?
Call this the young adult's stress-and-shitty-events-affecting-my-mood-and-appetite. That time when I measured 45kg on the weighing machine wasn't a joke or means to attract attention - it just showed how much weight I lost since everything started.
Hopefully when everything's over, I'll be at ease.
Go on, you can continue without me. You've already done that once without realising I wasn't around. I sure as hell can move on without you. Honestly, I never expected that particular incident to shake me up so badly that I'm still feeling bitter about it whenever I have urges to toss something out my window, be it the iPhone in my house, my textbooks or my laptop.
Bottling things up isn't good, but it keeps me alive. I don't see how or why I should tell others when they can't solve my own problems. It is a cruel reminder how effed up I find the world to be, and how much of a close book I am.
Crumbling Wall I
I'm quite certain I'm on the verge of breaking down. Getting frustrated over everything, taking shit from parents, being overtly sensitive to tiny, insignificant details, getting annoyed at everything, holding grudges and holding back all the violence stored inside, where did my once peaceful and happy life disappear to? Why must I face this after exams?
Why can't I start working on FYP during school term? Why all the delays? I won't be so stressed over FYP now had I started earlier. Now I'm working on borrowed time. Three months only, to complete everything including final report. I haven't even done my research nor started writing my report. FML
What is wrong with me?
Everything.
What is right with me?
Nothing.
I don't even want to think about results coming out on Friday. Right now I'm a jumbled mixture of emotions, hungry, cold, and wanting to vent everything but I can't. I was ready to sock someone in the gut, hence I opted to freeze myself instead.
By dinner I lost all appetite, and disappeared three times. No one noticed, I think. I even tried to cool my head by dunking my head in the water. Ended up shivering. No one noticed.
I am quite like Kuroko when I want to be.
Maybe I just want it that way, to be alone and think things through.
Except, I nearly got knocked down by a truck on my way there, and then almost by a taxi on my way back.
Go figure.
Why can't I start working on FYP during school term? Why all the delays? I won't be so stressed over FYP now had I started earlier. Now I'm working on borrowed time. Three months only, to complete everything including final report. I haven't even done my research nor started writing my report. FML
What is wrong with me?
Everything.
What is right with me?
Nothing.
I don't even want to think about results coming out on Friday. Right now I'm a jumbled mixture of emotions, hungry, cold, and wanting to vent everything but I can't. I was ready to sock someone in the gut, hence I opted to freeze myself instead.
By dinner I lost all appetite, and disappeared three times. No one noticed, I think. I even tried to cool my head by dunking my head in the water. Ended up shivering. No one noticed.
I am quite like Kuroko when I want to be.
Maybe I just want it that way, to be alone and think things through.
Except, I nearly got knocked down by a truck on my way there, and then almost by a taxi on my way back.
Go figure.
Wednesday, December 26, 2012
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GdJpiyLW1TU
THIS.IS.GENIUS.
http://reverseharem.blogspot.sg/2012/12/merry-christmas.html
ASDKJHALSKJDHLKAJSDHLKAJSD
THIS.IS.GENIUS.
http://reverseharem.blogspot.sg/2012/12/merry-christmas.html
ASDKJHALSKJDHLKAJSDHLKAJSD
Tuesday, December 25, 2012
I decided to watch Naruto SD, and Neji you are way too adorable. Tenten puts a harisen to good use. She's like the tsukkomi to Lee's boke. While Neji.....he's damn cute in a skirt OTL
AND THE ENDING VIDEO. IT'S TOO CUTE. ESPECIALLY WHEN NEJI'S DANCING.
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OMG Xan you're still spazzing over Kengo hahaha. I'm not surprised actually. But it's cute watching her fangirl when we finally met. (I FINALLY FOUND HER I AM THE ONE SPAZZING ALRIGHT. BESIDES ME AND SILK SPAZZING OVER DORU'S BASCO THAT IS. I CAN'T GET OVER HOW PERFECT HER BASCO WAS.)
Eh, if photoshoot, can I wait till I remove my braces? Coz one of Gen-chan's traits, besides the pompadour, is his winning smile. I need to have nice teeth in order to smile with teeth, and hey, how many characters I cosplayed actually allow me to smile with teeth? I've only recently learnt to smile without teeth, only because of the characters I get. And because I don't exactly like the shape of my lips, I don't like to smile without teeth. I'm learning to shape my lips to something suitable, something I like.
AND THE ENDING VIDEO. IT'S TOO CUTE. ESPECIALLY WHEN NEJI'S DANCING.
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OMG Xan you're still spazzing over Kengo hahaha. I'm not surprised actually. But it's cute watching her fangirl when we finally met. (I FINALLY FOUND HER I AM THE ONE SPAZZING ALRIGHT. BESIDES ME AND SILK SPAZZING OVER DORU'S BASCO THAT IS. I CAN'T GET OVER HOW PERFECT HER BASCO WAS.)
Eh, if photoshoot, can I wait till I remove my braces? Coz one of Gen-chan's traits, besides the pompadour, is his winning smile. I need to have nice teeth in order to smile with teeth, and hey, how many characters I cosplayed actually allow me to smile with teeth? I've only recently learnt to smile without teeth, only because of the characters I get. And because I don't exactly like the shape of my lips, I don't like to smile without teeth. I'm learning to shape my lips to something suitable, something I like.
Saturday, December 22, 2012
Greetings from KL.
I'm content with my Joe jacket and Mukkun jersey. Sorry if the combination looks weird - the hotel room is cold.
Can't wait for CF and my shopping. All the times I've been to KL I've never gone free and easy. Somewhat.
Ascott hotel is fantastic. 2 bedrooms, one kitchen, one living room. Aircon too cold.
Joe's jacket keeps my body warm but not my hands. I forgot to bring my hand warmers =.=
I'm content with my Joe jacket and Mukkun jersey. Sorry if the combination looks weird - the hotel room is cold.
Can't wait for CF and my shopping. All the times I've been to KL I've never gone free and easy. Somewhat.
Ascott hotel is fantastic. 2 bedrooms, one kitchen, one living room. Aircon too cold.
Joe's jacket keeps my body warm but not my hands. I forgot to bring my hand warmers =.=
Friday, December 21, 2012
Psycho-pass 11
79. 50. 32. Under 20. 0
Shogo you are scary. Can't be judged by the Sibyl System. I'm not surprised, but seriously, 0. Now that's surprising. Only Akane so far has been portrayed cloud-free, but now it's getting interesting. Especially since she saw her friend killed before her eyes.
At least Shogo gave her a quick death.
No I'm not going to talk about that topic. I swore my criminal coefficient went bonkers when it happened.
I'd like to see how Akane will fare next episode onwards. A bullet through the head to any asshat who calls her weak when she couldn't do anything. I'd like to see your reaction when you're faced in a situation like this. I don't think you'll stay sane if your friend was killed before your very eyes. Humans who have never faced danger are naturally cowards whose survival instincts take pride before everything.
Seriously, I've had enough.
Shogo you are scary. Can't be judged by the Sibyl System. I'm not surprised, but seriously, 0. Now that's surprising. Only Akane so far has been portrayed cloud-free, but now it's getting interesting. Especially since she saw her friend killed before her eyes.
At least Shogo gave her a quick death.
No I'm not going to talk about that topic. I swore my criminal coefficient went bonkers when it happened.
I'd like to see how Akane will fare next episode onwards. A bullet through the head to any asshat who calls her weak when she couldn't do anything. I'd like to see your reaction when you're faced in a situation like this. I don't think you'll stay sane if your friend was killed before your very eyes. Humans who have never faced danger are naturally cowards whose survival instincts take pride before everything.
Seriously, I've had enough.
Wednesday, December 19, 2012
Shattered pieces
Dear lord, crying again. It's the first time I'm crying so badly over a fictional character. The first time I'm crying so badly over something.
I'm crying as I relieve last night's memories, as I mourn for the character I have loved for almost a decade. He was the first long-haired character I liked.
In memory of Neji, I will do the long-haired characters I'm cosing some justice. He died a warrior's death protecting the people he loved. It wasn't unjust - the only unjust thing was his unexpected death. Too sudden.
Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, love leaves a memory no one can steal.
You're finally free, Neji, free to roam the skies, free of burden.
I'm crying as I relieve last night's memories, as I mourn for the character I have loved for almost a decade. He was the first long-haired character I liked.
In memory of Neji, I will do the long-haired characters I'm cosing some justice. He died a warrior's death protecting the people he loved. It wasn't unjust - the only unjust thing was his unexpected death. Too sudden.
Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, love leaves a memory no one can steal.
You're finally free, Neji, free to roam the skies, free of burden.
日向ネジ
I'm not the only one shaken by Neji's death. All over, friends and people I know are raging at this unexpected turn of event. We were prepared for other character deaths, but we weren't prepared for this. And if you tell me Kishimoto-sensei will revive the dead characters like what Chiyo did to Gaara I am going to flip tables and call lightning upon this manga.
But, it shook me so bad that not even seeing Mukkun could mend my shattered heart. Even seeing Yuki and Joe on my dash cannot fully mend the tiny pieces of my heart.
Neji started off as somewhat arrogant and pessimistic, someone who believed in fate and did nothing to change it. Yet, his outlook on life took a turn for the better after meeting and battling Naruto, the so-called deadlast who taught him that fate can be changed, only if you are willing to take a step forward.
He died protecting his loved ones.
He died, choosing his own death.
RIP Hyuuga Neji, the genius of the Hyuuga clan and shinobi. His cursed seal, finally erased upon his ascension to the world beyond.
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And then I feel tears welling up in my eyes for the umpteenth time.
Plus I'm pretty sure I will sock the next asshole who makes a damn joke out of this.
But, it shook me so bad that not even seeing Mukkun could mend my shattered heart. Even seeing Yuki and Joe on my dash cannot fully mend the tiny pieces of my heart.
Neji started off as somewhat arrogant and pessimistic, someone who believed in fate and did nothing to change it. Yet, his outlook on life took a turn for the better after meeting and battling Naruto, the so-called deadlast who taught him that fate can be changed, only if you are willing to take a step forward.
He died protecting his loved ones.
He died, choosing his own death.
RIP Hyuuga Neji, the genius of the Hyuuga clan and shinobi. His cursed seal, finally erased upon his ascension to the world beyond.
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And then I feel tears welling up in my eyes for the umpteenth time.
Plus I'm pretty sure I will sock the next asshole who makes a damn joke out of this.
Tuesday, December 18, 2012
Naruto 614
Omg Kishimoto-sensei.
Omg.
Why do you have to do this?
Why do you have to kill off my favourite Naruto character?
Why do you have to kill off someone with a bright future? Someone who is actually practical, sensible, and has a good character development?
Why?
Why do you have to kill off Neji?
Why do you have to kill him?
First Ino and Shikamaru's fathers, now him. He's only 17, dammit!
It's too sudden! There was no build-up, nothing!
I....shall weep. I haven't cried over something in so long, and this. Omg.
Omg.
Why do you have to do this?
Why do you have to kill off my favourite Naruto character?
Why do you have to kill off someone with a bright future? Someone who is actually practical, sensible, and has a good character development?
Why?
Why do you have to kill off Neji?
Why do you have to kill him?
First Ino and Shikamaru's fathers, now him. He's only 17, dammit!
It's too sudden! There was no build-up, nothing!
Monday, December 17, 2012
Welcome to the Maple world, CaptenGwych! (Welsh for Captain Marvelous. Sadly I want him to be a bandit rather than a pirate, haha.) I created him on Eridanus because I want to test whether I can actually meet up with the characters in Delphinus and possibly PQ. I've only one slot left and I definitely want Luminous and Dual Blade.
But this guy is here only when I'm bored with playing other characters. Hey, when Dual Blade comes out I'll have a whole class of thieves in my account yo. Assassin, Phantom, Bandit, Dual Blade. 8D
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http://harususaku.deviantart.com/art/Human-SpinelSun-81388294
I like this design for Suppi/ Spinel Sun better. Will probably use it as a reference and combine with Yu's design (I do want the wings, so most likely I'll replace the cloak with wings to save me the trouble of making it). After all, cosing a gijinka version is up to one's interpretation.
But this guy is here only when I'm bored with playing other characters. Hey, when Dual Blade comes out I'll have a whole class of thieves in my account yo. Assassin, Phantom, Bandit, Dual Blade. 8D
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http://harususaku.deviantart.com/art/Human-SpinelSun-81388294
I like this design for Suppi/ Spinel Sun better. Will probably use it as a reference and combine with Yu's design (I do want the wings, so most likely I'll replace the cloak with wings to save me the trouble of making it). After all, cosing a gijinka version is up to one's interpretation.
Sunday, December 16, 2012
Music is my life
...I haven't been reading manga. I promised to catch up on Karneval, and I didn't. Guh.
I miss my piano. Badly. I had to make a decision to give up LTCL because of lack of time and the cost, otherwise I might have continued learning after I entered university and possibly taken the exam in year 4 or after I graduate. At least I have ATCL and grade 8 theory under my belt. Still, it would be more impressive to have had LTCL under your belt too.
Music or cosplay. I love both. I gave up furthering music and replaced it with cosplay. What if I had stuck with music, would I have made close friends, formed such close bonds with the people I know? On the contrary, I wouldn't experience all the shitty insecurities and feelings of being rather alone even when they surrounded me. At the very least I would have withdrawn myself and started thinking of how I would play my song, the technique I could apply etc.
Music drives away my loneliness. Music is my significant other. I live, breathe and experience with music.
I miss my piano. Badly. I had to make a decision to give up LTCL because of lack of time and the cost, otherwise I might have continued learning after I entered university and possibly taken the exam in year 4 or after I graduate. At least I have ATCL and grade 8 theory under my belt. Still, it would be more impressive to have had LTCL under your belt too.
Music or cosplay. I love both. I gave up furthering music and replaced it with cosplay. What if I had stuck with music, would I have made close friends, formed such close bonds with the people I know? On the contrary, I wouldn't experience all the shitty insecurities and feelings of being rather alone even when they surrounded me. At the very least I would have withdrawn myself and started thinking of how I would play my song, the technique I could apply etc.
Music drives away my loneliness. Music is my significant other. I live, breathe and experience with music.
Saturday, December 15, 2012
I think I should read Lord of the Rings someday, or at least watch the movies. It's Scandinavian lore (filmed in New Zealand I know), and I think the OST is majestically epic. I know the LOTR theme song only because I played it on piano once. In that sense I have to thank my former piano teacher for throwing me all those sheet music because they expose me to things I don't know.
Hey, just because I don't watch the show doesn't mean I don't know the music.
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I enjoyed the photoshoot yesterday. Sorry for suffering from low blood pressure - damn bandages you nearly killed me I'm gonna invest in a waist binder for more breathing space. Sakia suggests waist corset since I'm that skinny.
Er, I have a rather broad chest though, compared to the rest of my body. Proportion-wise.
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Oh wow, K, your development is slow man. So my liking the Silver King was not unfounded, wahaha. Yes I do like the Silver King Adolf K Weismann. I have something for white/blue/purple-haired guys or long-haired guys, don't ask. Blondes have never been on my list.
Hey, just because I don't watch the show doesn't mean I don't know the music.
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I enjoyed the photoshoot yesterday. Sorry for suffering from low blood pressure - damn bandages you nearly killed me I'm gonna invest in a waist binder for more breathing space. Sakia suggests waist corset since I'm that skinny.
Er, I have a rather broad chest though, compared to the rest of my body. Proportion-wise.
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Oh wow, K, your development is slow man. So my liking the Silver King was not unfounded, wahaha. Yes I do like the Silver King Adolf K Weismann. I have something for white/blue/purple-haired guys or long-haired guys, don't ask. Blondes have never been on my list.
Wednesday, December 12, 2012
Two more days to Gokai shoot. Today I'm doing FYP. Thursday I have course registration, and will do more FYP. Friday is the shoot. Saturday I have piano lesson, will do more FYP, will hunt for Gen-chan's shirt and dogtag necklace. Sunday I'm working, will do more FYP.
Next week, dental appointment on Wednesday, going to Malaysia from Friday to Monday, and anything in between will be FYP.
I'm most certainly irrevocably ass-see-argh-eeeeee-double-'U's-eeeeeeee-dee for FYP.
I'm most definitely not busy.
Note the sarcasm, assholes.
Next week, dental appointment on Wednesday, going to Malaysia from Friday to Monday, and anything in between will be FYP.
I'm most certainly irrevocably ass-see-argh-eeeeee-double-'U's-eeeeeeee-dee for FYP.
I'm most definitely not busy.
Note the sarcasm, assholes.
One day
One day.
One day, after I graduate, after everything, I shall sit down at my laptop and sort out everything. My music especially. I'm just looking through my mp3 and its 1000 and 1 songs, and I'm like where are my other songs. I saved them all in CDs, and I shall find one day to drag them out.
Probably get a new hard disk just for all my music. Songs, OSTs.
Also, I shall sit down one day to sort out my Facebook f-list. I want to delete all the CA and KoC friends I added when I wanted to build my army. I enjoyed playing CA, it was fun whacking monsters, I'm staying stagnant at level 297 and refuse to level up to be enemy fodder.
Heck, I just want one day to sort out my life. Be who I am. To H-E-double-hockey-sticks with other insecurities and distractions and negative feelings, I'm going to pull through, and I will show you.
One day, after I graduate, after everything, I shall sit down at my laptop and sort out everything. My music especially. I'm just looking through my mp3 and its 1000 and 1 songs, and I'm like where are my other songs. I saved them all in CDs, and I shall find one day to drag them out.
Probably get a new hard disk just for all my music. Songs, OSTs.
Also, I shall sit down one day to sort out my Facebook f-list. I want to delete all the CA and KoC friends I added when I wanted to build my army. I enjoyed playing CA, it was fun whacking monsters, I'm staying stagnant at level 297 and refuse to level up to be enemy fodder.
Heck, I just want one day to sort out my life. Be who I am. To H-E-double-hockey-sticks with other insecurities and distractions and negative feelings, I'm going to pull through, and I will show you.
Sunday, December 09, 2012
Well, thank god I made the decision to buy concession. Looking at my schedule from yesterday to next week, I certainly will be travelling to quite a few places everyday.
http://kiseki-no-seduction.tumblr.com/post/35964826688/room-service
This tumblr blog is a gem. All those lines are fantastic for fic writing, especially crack fics. XDDDDD Seriously I've never laughed so hard in my life. Those pick-up lines, omg, I am laughing too hard XDDDDD
This tumblr blog is a gem. All those lines are fantastic for fic writing, especially crack fics. XDDDDD Seriously I've never laughed so hard in my life. Those pick-up lines, omg, I am laughing too hard XDDDDD
Thursday, December 06, 2012
music musings
Holy shit
夢、時々…
http://www.clubdam.com/app/leaf/songKaraokeLeaf.do?contentsId=5031623
They HAVE Yume tokidoki by marasy on DAM. Just....LIVE DAM....
And they have KiLLER LADY on (LIVE) DAM too. Japan why you do this to me......
I will flip tables if they added Tsugai Kogarashi to DAM.
Thanks KurousaP (aka WhiteFlame for some reason), Akahitoha is a very nice song. By Luka somemore, wow. I love the composition of this song.
High chance I'll be searching for his compositions....they cater to my tastes. So far I like Kurousa P and Shigotoshite P.
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Oo Kasamatsu has a nice, clean voice.
夢、時々…
http://www.clubdam.com/app/leaf/songKaraokeLeaf.do?contentsId=5031623
They HAVE Yume tokidoki by marasy on DAM. Just....LIVE DAM....
And they have KiLLER LADY on (LIVE) DAM too. Japan why you do this to me......
I will flip tables if they added Tsugai Kogarashi to DAM.
Thanks KurousaP (aka WhiteFlame for some reason), Akahitoha is a very nice song. By Luka somemore, wow. I love the composition of this song.
High chance I'll be searching for his compositions....they cater to my tastes. So far I like Kurousa P and Shigotoshite P.
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Oo Kasamatsu has a nice, clean voice.
Tuesday, December 04, 2012
http://aduah.tumblr.com/post/37143768851/30-day-cheesy-tropes-challenge
I'll try this. Need some prompts to get me started. And a fandom. I think I want Kuroko no Basuke (HimuKaga ><) or tokusatsu because there are more characters to work with. Plus, it's easy to incorporate characters into different scenarios.
I'm quite tempted to write in my OC, but I'd rather not. My OC is for other stories, not for memes like these.
I still want to try writing a Maple fic. Probably inspired by SAO, but still, Maple.
Mercedes. Aran. Phantom. Luminous. Evan.
I only realised it several days ago.
I'll try this. Need some prompts to get me started. And a fandom. I think I want Kuroko no Basuke (HimuKaga ><) or tokusatsu because there are more characters to work with. Plus, it's easy to incorporate characters into different scenarios.
I'm quite tempted to write in my OC, but I'd rather not. My OC is for other stories, not for memes like these.
I still want to try writing a Maple fic. Probably inspired by SAO, but still, Maple.
Mercedes. Aran. Phantom. Luminous. Evan.
I only realised it several days ago.
I went back to watch Koshonin 2 after seeing a tumblr image of Yagami Ren. Thank god I still can find the episodes >< Shirotan~
Psychotic Mariya. He's very intelligent, very perceptive, a juvenile criminal who kills without remorse, but intelligent nonetheless =w= How he knows all these I have no idea. Maybe because he thinks differently from the mundane humans. But his fascination with Usagi is really cute.
Psychotic Mariya. He's very intelligent, very perceptive, a juvenile criminal who kills without remorse, but intelligent nonetheless =w= How he knows all these I have no idea. Maybe because he thinks differently from the mundane humans. But his fascination with Usagi is really cute.
Saturday, December 01, 2012
http://www.pixiv.net/member_illust.php?mode=medium&illust_id=31785407
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*goes back to studying*
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*goes back to studying*
I CAN'T WAIT FOR YUYAN'S ALBUM NOW. HIS NEW SONGS ARE LOVELY. Naked Night made me squeal. Key....omg, Key. I love the composition for this song >< I like No Rain, No Rainbow for the lyrics.
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Embracing the dark side with Psycho-Pass. Now I want to write the 10 theme meme fic featuring a pairing I like. The AU portion will be Psycho-Pass XD
After exams.
When I'm taking a break from FYP and Maple and prop-making.
"Long" into the night. Nah, kidding. I want to try writing our Maple fanfics. All the shenanigans will make it damn hilarious XDDDD Especially the random free beauty coupon arc. Then we have character upgrades, PQs, Theme Dungeons, Silent Crusade.
And ho shit I kinda forgot I might need to style Gen-chan's wig, though high chance I've no time to make his accessories in time for CF >.> Gomen na, Kengo.
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Embracing the dark side with Psycho-Pass. Now I want to write the 10 theme meme fic featuring a pairing I like. The AU portion will be Psycho-Pass XD
After exams.
When I'm taking a break from FYP and Maple and prop-making.
"Long" into the night. Nah, kidding. I want to try writing our Maple fanfics. All the shenanigans will make it damn hilarious XDDDD Especially the random free beauty coupon arc. Then we have character upgrades, PQs, Theme Dungeons, Silent Crusade.
And ho shit I kinda forgot I might need to style Gen-chan's wig, though high chance I've no time to make his accessories in time for CF >.> Gomen na, Kengo.