http://bonjourentrez.tumblr.com/post/41831661067/x-1-29-trump-true-of-vamp-which-made

Tomo, you shouldn't have said those words. I liked you, I thought you were a great Kaidou, and you yourself worked hard to be part of D Date despite the backlash, but those words? D2 has worked hard, they should be saying things like "Thank you! We will continue to do our best!" and strive to work harder at the future performances. Those words should have been left for backstage as an after review. I watched Haru Doko 2011, seen the effort they put into the performances, and Taito being rather disappointed with them. That was backstage.

Of course I didn't say anything when I reblogged the incidence. Those words have been said by the rebloggers and the original author of the post. Summary: Wrong setting, wrong manner. I don't care if you don't mince your words, but in front of the audience? I don't mince my words, but I know when to say. Experience.

Dammit, ever since the stupid incident, I now have a half-nonchalant half-weary outlook on things like these.

I'm graduating this semester. We need people to fill up the main com. I don't care how things were in the past, how things are now; what's gonna happen to VAS in the future I can honestly care less. The dynamics will change, and they'll continue to change.

I can live with changes and adapt to them. Can you?

I have harboured thoughts of owning a male BJD (ball-jointed doll) should I ever stop cosplaying. He will be a cool, silent guy, very capable and skilled, but he sucks at interpersonal relationships. A man of few words. Though honestly, I want a Joe doll. Yes I'm obsessed with Joe/Yuki. And I will want to dress him up as otome game guys.

And I see these that I like:
http://souldoll.com/shop/step1.php?number=2838
http://www.dreamofdoll.com/eng/product/product_view.asp?idx=8W00000400&Page=1&Search_Type=&Search_Value=&Cate=0002%7C0003%7C&Search_Cate=&Order_Name=p_num&Order_Type=Desc&Order_Num=16

=.=

Then suddenly, I want a female BJD too. They'll be fraternal twins ><

...

Bleh. But I won't buy them. There are other stuff I want to save up for, which takes precedence over BJDs. Besides, I don't exactly have the capital to play big brother to my dolls (yes, I won't be their mummy, but their aniki).

I just want a Joe doll. Or Yuki doll. Or Joe teddy bear. A Mukkun bear is fine too, but Joe's my priority. ><

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I've decided. I'm going to combine all the Suppi gijinka fanart I can find, and design my own outfit.

Hakkenden

http://www.animenewsnetwork.com/encyclopedia/anime.php?id=14433

OMG Genpachi wtf hahahaha SHINO IS MALE. I know he's pretty and all but honestly, your delusions are cracking me up. Still, RIO~ I was amused by the kira kira surrounding him, but it's Rio! He's cool ><

I like this series because the animals are so magnificent. Admittedly, I prefer them over the humans. Plus, they never minced the gore. It's not as bloody as Psycho-Pass, but the torture and the blood spill weren't minced either. ^^

Well, it's time to read the manga....and catch up on Karneval OTL don't remind me >.> Ah yes, where was I? Hakkenden manga, and Karneval. And some day I will just sit down and catch up on Beelzebub, Code Breaker, Vampire Knight....I get the feeling I'll do that during CNY.

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BK dancing Matryoshka >< I died. Hmm, the dances I can roughly remember are:
Love and Joy
Bad Apple
Tsugai Kogarashi
Renai Circulation
Remote Control

I wanted to learn Spring Shower, Zigg-Zagg, Matryoshka, KiLLER Lady, Only My Railgun and dammit, Just Be Friends.

http://blog.okiayu.jp/?eid=1086728

OMEDETOU, OKIAYU-SAMA! He is now married to Maeda Ai, another seiyuu. Congratulations! May you two lead a blessed married life!

Why did things become so uptight among us? Why did things become so strained?

Me, I'm not annoyed. It's a resigned feeling that because of some incident that directly and indirectly involved us, things are strained. We've put things behind us, but no matter what you say, about past feeling bitter, past feeling anything, you're still bothered by it.

My apologies for trying to care. It doesn't concern me, but I do not think that telling me about it will involve me. I do not see how knowing about what troubles you will involve me. At the very least, reply me. I did ask if you're okay. I do not expect you to lie to me "I'm fine" when you're obviously not. Whether you want to tell me or not is up to you. But at least say something. I know I'm not the most sympathetic person out there, but I will listen.

Take a deep breath. Calm thy heart. Calm thy thoughts.

 Look, here's Mir. Isn't he cute?

Dwrddraig and Mir

BABY MIR IS SO CUTE URGH. But I must level my Rogue to bandit first, and especially my Blade Specialist to level 70 first ><

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Yo fucker, I was here first, resting on a rope. You do NOT tell me to cc and ask if I don't understand English when obviously your eyesight is so bad you can't even see a red dot on the mini map showing another player's presence. If you didn't activate the mini map that's your bloody problem. I was here first. You should be the one cc-ing. I'm just kind enough to not tell you to cc because I don't mind sharing maps. I don't care if I'm ks-ed because I'm not that weak either, plus my goal is to get more scrolls that get me into the Main hall. Besides collecting all cure potions that is. But you, you stole my box after I defeated the Vampire. Honestly I hope you didn't get what you want.

I feel childish for ranting out, but it isn't the cc part that got me, it was the "dont understand english" part that made me think the fucker was a weebo not yet in his late teens. I will cc if someone was already there before me, unless I am completing a quest.

I'm not angry. I'm not annoyed. My reaction now is the incredulous, seriously-what-the-fuck? kind of feeling. It's not anger. It's not being pissed off. Oh, I sure know what being pissed off feels like. It's just this can-you-believe-it? feeling that makes me question what the hell is wrong with your attitude.

Blacklisted, motherfucking boya. Bet you can't even get my character's name spelt right.

Guh, at least I defeated the Vampire after dying twice. The first time he appeared was at 1.30 I think. The next was almost 2pm. I remember the first time I met him was at around 1 plus, where Rhithllafn died.

I'll just go back to Zekkenshi, CaptenGwych or Dwrddraig. And remind me to wake earlier so that I can Maple before noon kicks in. I'll be using Lleiddiad and Rhithllafn for PQs...Hmm...

紫薔薇

紫薔薇

Murasakibara.

Purple rose.

=D One of my favourite flowers is the sunflower, and those wild, pretty ones that bloom during the months of August.

http://www.godchecker.com/

Interesting site with summarized versions of the gods hahahaha. I was laughing my ass off at Norse.

Celtic gods...hmm...the only name I recognise is Arawn.

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I created an Evan in Eridanus. Welcome to the world, Dwrddraig! I think if I were to play Izar, the first character I will create is a Wild Hunter.

Looking at boots/shoes on Taobao, and I'm quite envious because most of the shoes I like don't have my size. I need size 40. They stop at 39 =.= Well, at least I know what kind of shoes to look for in Korea. And yes I am determined to own at least one pair of suede boots, either blue or maroon. I know I won't be buying much, thus.

Here is a guide on the size conversion. Most of us use European and US sizes.

I will make Hades' boot covers after exams. The bunched up part at his ankles makes things so much easier - I don't even need to cover the shoe completely. =w= And well, Neku's shoes will be a pain in the ass, though I have an idea how to make his boot covers.

I don't want to talk about Phantom's boot covers. His vampire version seems better ><

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I haven't been watching Ixion Saga and Zetsuen no Tempest. Will probably catch up on stuff during the CNY period.

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Seduce has officially become a taboo word in my dictionary. Because my characters keep dying as a result. RRyotarou especially has a grudge. And for the first time ever, Rhithllafn lost his life to the Vampire from Veracent. I was lucky to actually MEET the boss (remind me to play Maple during the weekday morning, where everyone's in school. Easier to train at places where there aren't many players around) but Rhithllafn died. Guh. At least he leveled up before the tombstone dropped, but still.....

Read in another context, it'll be "I died because the Boss seduced me." Ok, actually Rhithllafn didn't die because he got seduced - he did, but it was too far for the Vampire to attack. I didn't know what happened, maybe Rhithllafn got hit by a powerful attack before I could consume sufficient health potions.

Current levels:
RRyotarou Night Lord 139
Lleiddiad Mercedes 115
Tywyllwch Demon Slayer 85
Rhithllafn Phantom 85
NosCerddwrII Night Walker 70
Zekkenshi Blade Specialist 60

Four thief classes here. Once my Night Walker is max level (wait long long), my Ultimate Explorer will be a bandit. XD I just want a range of thieves to play around with.

中島 みゆき Nakajima Miyuki

The first song I heard by Nakajima Miyuki was East Asia, because of Hetalia, and yes I loved that song. Mezzo alto, hauntingly beautiful, and with so much meaning. The first time I attempted to sing I almost gave up because I didn't know how to read kanji. Now

And I'm randomly listening to her songs on youtube. She is versatile. And some of her songs resonate with me - oriental pop. It's almost enka, but hey, I played enka in band and I loved it.

Oh sweet Mother Earth, I love Murasaki no Sakura [紫の桜]. >< It's too beautiful.

Honestly people, wtf

Okay, some things I need to clarify here. Before I start shooting off my thoughts, I will make this clear - I am currently not feeling down, I have a clear head, self-hatred and anger aren't clouding my thoughts, so what I say here will be based on a more normal, day-to-day me that you know. I am not directly affected because I am innocent, I wasn't around, I didn't show signs that I know what was happening. The only connection I have is me being part of the group, and in the Main Committee.

I'll set this to automatic so that I know I've heard things from different point of views.

Right, first off, as an observer, I am keeping a neutral stance. I've listened to those in my group ranting and raving about issues. I've listened to the other side. I am berating myself why the hell am I getting worked up over because 1) I know nothing, 2) I'm not even involved directly, 3) I have no say. I shouldn't let others' tones and words affect me when I'm just sitting on the fence. I only related some issues that might clarify things.

I should have a firm resolve never to let things like this affect my mood. As of now, whatever happens next is their problem. I don't, and won't take a side. I have no need to.

I have many things to say, but as things turn out, what I feel isn't important anymore. Everyone's worked up over things, me saying something will tip the balance, and break the scales. Whatever personal issues I have are my own. They aren't important anymore. I may feel annoyed, frustrated, but it hasn't affected my life. I have always moved on, even though I live in the past occasionally.

Reason why I rarely tell anyone my problems: I don't see a need to, I don't want to burden others with something that is my own and no one else's, they don't need to know just how screwed up I am because it gets tiring when you have to deal with a consistent open book. I'm not, but if I nitpick at every single dissatisfaction, it just makes me seem narrow-minded and intolerant when I'm one of the more open-minded, easy-going, heck care individuals in the club.

How hypocritical those words are. But hey, by writing it out, I'm not bottling things. How else do you think I manage to stay sane despite all the shit I go through, without telling anyone? No one knows why I broke down on Boxing Day. No one knows why I go through some stupid emo shit which even I find ridiculous.

As people say, "It's just me. Don't worry about it." Hell, it won't make things better because you're really bothered by it. And then you start thinking that no one cares about your opinions and all that. Dude, been there done that tell me something new that I don't know =.=

I realise I always end up brushing my own opinions and feelings aside because I don't deem them important. It's a quirky trait of mine.

http://serpenscape.tumblr.com/post/37569611132/kagamido-a-dual-melody

I WILL NOT CONDONE MUSIC FICS.

8DD

Okay, when I don't see people as often, it's totally back to school for us.

Eight Trigrams Sixty-four Punchlines

Ok, I believe I will be bringing my laptop to school almost everyday now. And so, I will probably watch Naruto SD and other videos in my laptop on the train ^^ And hopefully screenshot everything Neji. Seriously I haven't laughed so hard in my life.

"Eight Trigrams Sixty-four Punchlines. That attack is the reason why the Hyuugas are such renowned comedians." - Gai-sensei

"Set me up, I dare you. You are within...the range of my punchline!" - Hyuuga Neji

EIGHT TRIGRAMS SIXTY-FOUR PUNCHLINES WTFHAHAHAHAHA

I'm sorry, when Neji is the serious guy in the show, it makes things all the funnier.

I want to see his One Hundred Twenty-Eight Palms though. Hakke Hyaku Nijuuhachi Shou! Haha, he usually uses Hakke Rokujuuyon Shou (extensively in Naruto SD episode 9, I must add)

Excuse me wtf I do NOT ship NejiLee =.= Kimochi warui. I'd rather NejiNaruto.

Jet Lee. *facepalm*

Oh wow, Kiba was voiced by Toriumi, and Shikamaru by Morikubo. NO WONDER SHIKAMARU'S VOICE SOUNDS SO FAMILIAR. SOUJI HAHAHAHA

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Thomas_E._Sniegoski

Ahhhhh updates for The Fallen series and Remy Chandler series! ><

Hahaha I miss reading books. Meh.

And then I realise, I don't need to know everything.

I should just shut up and stop self-pitying. I get annoyed when others do that, and I get annoyed at myself why am I trying to make myself seem like I'm worse off, no matter how true it is? It usually comes to the point of "Oh shut up, no one has the right to complain because I'm worse than you." Funny how we like to compare who's worse - maybe it's an unconscious way to comfort others who think they had it bad.

I don't want pity, yet I tend to complain about being worse than the rest just because. It disgusts me somewhat - well, human mentality. Very well. I will shut up, be the cool self I once was, take things like a man.

That.

Top 10 All time favourite music

Top 10 All Time Favourite Music

Not in order:

1. Akakakushi - Shikata Akiko
2. LOST CHILDREN - Shikata Akiko
3. Lonely Rain - Matsushita Yuya
4. Trust Me - Matsushita Yuya
5. Utakata - kagrra,
6. red moon - Kalafina
7. Michishirube - Miyamoto Shunichi
8. Byakuya True Light - Miyamoto Shunichi
9. Tsugai Kogarashi - KaitoXMeiko
10. A Song For You - Matsushita Yuya

Senbonzakura and Tsugai Kogarashi. I love both, but I have more love for Tsugai Kogarashi. Haha.....I've no space to put Senbonzakura there. There're probably other songs too, like Sakurane, just that these are the ones I'll definitely put on loop and listen for a week or more.

I've had this blog for years. Almost a decade. I've told no one about it, because there's nothing interesting to read. People know my interests through sites like Tumblr, FB, but anything else, it's zilch. Nada.

I will use this as a platform to rant. No point posting statuses - the whole world doesn't need to know how fucked up I am. The whole world doesn't need to know what bus I take, what I had for breakfast, lunch and dinner, what goddamn injury I have in my body, what my family looks like, what my house looks like, where I live, my contact details...

Do I look like an open book to you?

Plus I am good at hiding my presence, to the point that no one will know where I am until they try to find me, or when I appear before them. I can leave the place and no one will realize until later. Because everyone assumes I'm somewhere and no one bothers until they realise I've disappeared. Counting the seconds as they frantically search for me is actually kinda fun, in a sadistic way. I don't even answer my phone.

I don't know why I'm one of the first few who WOULD ask "Where is XXX?" or "Where did XXX go?" How...ironic.

It may backfire on me should one day I am kidnapped and I am uncontactable. By then, I may or may not survive. Wish me all the luck.

I don't need to tell anyone my troubles. I have a journal I write everyday. I have a blog for convenient rants, fangirl squealing, fanboying, muses, head canons, and whatever shenanigans in my wretched life. People tell me to not bottle up my feelings. In fact, I don't; I don't talk to people about the shit I'm going through. It's hard for me to say it without me breaking down or getting worked up.

I write.

It's all here.

I realise I don't post my rants

Up to you to ask me for the link - I'm not against telling people this blog. Just, there's nothing to indicate their response. No PMs, no comments, nothing.

If you find it, good for you. Welcome to my world. Poke me when you do, yeah? At least I know which ass has been privy to my lesser life that isn't fangirling/fanboying.

If not, it's okay. I don't backstab. There's no reason for me to. I will hate your actions and behavior, but I will not hate you as a person. Those who do aggravate me as a person, luck won't be on your side. I will be hostile to you, mark my words.

I'm fine. For now. No grudges against anyone.

Something no one will read

OK, DJ GOT US FALLING IN LOVE AND TSUGAI KOGARASHI SHORT ARRANGEMENTS DONE AND READY FOR USE. Because I'm a biased bastard, the piano is always around.

Next project might be Catch Me. And then song request. Oops I haven't passed baka musume his Sakurane yet. ><

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Thanks for making me feel extremely useless. Now I'm so bored I wished I had decided to come later, say, around 9pm. Or brought my laptop. But I refuse to do my work nor bring such a heavy thing to chalet, especially when we're checking out tomorrow.

I should have just stayed home. At least I would have something to do even if I have to wait till 12am for someone to get online. I can Maple. I can watch videos. I can do more FYP. I can start writing my report. I can arrange more songs. I can read manga.

I can wash my hands off things and go back to the cold-blooded lone wolf hikkikomori I was in the past. No FB, no MSN, no Skype, only me and my books and my crafts.

If I want company, but company doesn't want me, so be it. I don't need to be around since I'm probably just a hindrance or outsider or an extra addition. The old me wouldn't act this way. The old me wouldn't give a damn in the first place, coz hey, I'm not close to you, I don't harbour that deep a feeling. I don't particularly care.

Honestly, I've nearly forgotten how much I hate chalets. Cosfest wasn't boring only because we were all busy, we were out the whole afternoon, we had dinner outside, and we went around saying hi to people we know. I've nearly forgotten how much I hated those so-called relaxing places, because they bore me. I'd rather spend my time on activities. Things like exploring places, simply chatting, taking pictures of scenery...I think the reason why I used to keep bringing a book around was to keep myself from being bored to death. It only changed to notes because of endless tests and exams.

Suddenly, I'm not so hungry, even though I ate quite little for the BBQ....Probably, by the time I go back down, most of the food would have been gone.

And they say I'm getting skinnier. I know I am, and I'm not going to do anything to rectify this. It comes and goes.

It's easier for me to lose weight than gain back the weight I lost.

I'm not apologizing for the previous sentence.

Time to arrange a new song. I'm bored out of my socks. Wait, I'm not wearing any, wtf am I talking about.

Retsuya is a huge fan of The Piano Guys and Lindsey Stirling. I like them too, but because I'm biased, I'm not that huge a fan. I like brass instruments better, mainly because I was one for six years. I love the deep sounding instruments. I'm fine with strings, but in an orchestra, I prefer the grander songs. Lots of cellos and double basses and trombones and tubas and whatnot, maybe the rolling sound of timpanis etc.

Band/orchestra AU fanfics are most definitely welcomed. Plus, it provides one of the most interesting crossovers ever if you pit series against each other.

......

I still want to arrange a medley......Currently the only idea I have is Kurobasu character song medley, but the sheer number is putting me off (no time, yanno?). Maybe I should just ask my friends for one or two favourite songs, don't care what language, and build a medley from there.

On my list:

1. Kuroko no Basuke
2. Tokusatsu
3. Shikata Akiko
4. Matsushita Yuya
5. Kalafina
6. Otome game (Hakuouki, Arcana Famiglia, Wand of Fortune, Amnesia, Neo Angelique Abyss, Haruka Naru Toki no Naka de, Kamigami no Asobi)
7. DN Angel

Bold = more plausible, more interested

Music muses. Nope, not puns

Thanks to Keikitty, she's throwing me English songs to listen. I like DJ Got Us Falling in Love - it has a nice tune. One of the few dancepop style that attracts me, and I'm not a fan of dancepop save for certain styles (see me avoiding Kpop like a plague? There are just so few Kpop music that I admit I enjoy listening to. Currently it's TVXQ's Catch Me, and I'm in love with the whole composition of that song.)



Friends suggested Sam Tsui's cover of DJ Got Us Falling in Love. Opinions: I have no preference for the arrangement because Sam Tsui has a nice voice, and I'm also one of those who enjoy covers if done well (You want biased I give you biased - instrumental arrangements beat vocals anytime). But I wholeheartedly prefer Kurt's rap in this cover.

I like the way he raps yo.



MARASY. I have a musician crush on him. The only time I can play a fast song is when I've memorised the song - that's when you'll see me play like him here. Totally enjoying the song, immersed in the throes of the interweaving melody. Sadly I don't have many songs I want to learn, because my interest comes and goes.

But one day I want to play a medley. I don't know what medley, but I want to arrange a medley. It'll be a project.

And a random thing - SHIT LIVE DAM GOLD/PREMIUM HAS IROHA UTA. YUME TOKI DOKI. KiLLER LADY.

http://mangafox.me/search/author/Atlus/

Yes, I remember now. One Hyuuga fanart reminded me of Devil Summoner, haha.

Oh wow, Devil Survivor and Devil Survivor 2 are taken after a game? Why am I not surprised, lol. It's an RPG (no I'm not harbouring thoughts to cosplay DS2's Hero.)

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Dream Drop Distance Walkthrough playlist

Because I love crossovers. I need to play TWEWY someday otherwise I won't know Neku's character.

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 Naruto SD, a crack fic come to life. I will most certainly use it as inspiration for my fics (if I actually get down to writing one. I'm lazy.)

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I think it's time for me to get back reading Karneval after putting it off for so long......=.=

I NEED TO PRACTISE MY EXPRESSIONS IN ORDER TO PULL OFF SEXY AND HANDSOME. I'm just best at doing cool, because I'm a kuudere. Probably the only one known to others so far.

Happy New Year 2013

I survived 2012. Changed my dp (because I find it amusing)

This is just another day, spent on Maple x3 drop and exp rate.

I died 4 times, wtf.

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YUYA NOW HAS AMEBLO.

http://ameblo.jp/matsushitayuya/

AND HIS DOG IS SO CUTE.

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http://mangafox.me/manga/tomodachi_no_hanashi/

I like this story. It's so realistic

Which kinda reminds me, my first best friend broke up with her first boyfriend (of JC. Probably about 4 years before they broke up?) and has a new one. I just saw on FB.

So, who says FB is annoying? At least I am somewhat updated of my friends' lives, no matter how mundane.

I read shoujo manga, but now I'm gearing towards those with more interesting heroines. Ao Haru Ride, Koi da no Ai da no are my current muses. I love the heroines in these manga. It's so surreal and yet good inspiration for fanfics.

I need more unique characteristics for my OCs.....