助けたくない。

Why is it always like this?

No wonder I'm so bitter towards helping people. Namely because I don't get help from others.

I tried. I really did. But whenever I sought help, there was always no one there to help me. Because they aren't there. Because they are too busy helping others.

I did my own things, planned right from the start, revised again, made sure I had time.

I got through all kinds of personal bullshit myself. Help? What help? I barged my way through said bullshit, grabbed it by the throat, and told it to scram or else.

I'm not referring to trivial help. I'm referring to that of a more desperate level.

You probably think I'm just a selfish bastard, but no, I'm worse than that. I'm really screwed in the head.

Help?

Fuck you. You don't get to judge me. You don't have the right to do that, you who take more than what you can chew. I know, that's why I'm kind enough to spare you the burden that is my own.

No don't give me that apologetic look. I'm sick and tired of seeing it recur whenever it is directed at me.

Help, you say?

Fuck you.

Whimsical musings

I'm very amused by people sometimes. But what the heck, if they don't give any fucks about others, I don't either.

I can make your life difficult if you make mine the same. ^^

We all have our pet peeves.

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Female cosplays

I do want to cosplay a female character at least once. A character of my own volition, planned from start to finish. I will definitely need the make-up help, eh...

So far, I only know female Xenon. If I were to cosplay male Xenon (which I haven't seen so far), I would make the thrusters as well. For photoshoot that is. I'll cry if I bring them to an event. Or maybe a Jon Lock gijinka.

It's not like I want to stick to male characters on purpose. It's because I don't have a feminine face, plus most female characters I like aren't the ones I'm very interested in cosplaying either. I like cool, but not necessarily sexy.

http://www.buzzfeed.com/peggy/diy-beauty-hacks-every-girl-should-know-592?bffbdiy

http://www.aucourantprincess.com/2013/12/how-to-apply-basic-eye-makeup.html

Useful tips. Coz I gotta start learning to apply simple makeup =.= Especially the eyes. I'm still learning to do the eyes with whatever minimalistic stuff I have. Because I want to try when I go Japan, especially with all the contact lenses that I am bringing along (to throw after I wear them. No more use for the colours especially when Phantom's eye colour is purple.)

This is going to be fun

Two can play at the game.

It is a battle of wits.

This is going to be really fun.

You have picked an interesting and difficult opponent to play with, to try manipulate.

About time I put my skills to good use.

I reiterate. This is going to be so fun. ^^

GUEST STAR OF BLUE SKY EPISODE 10: TSUKIMORI LEN

LEN

PRECIOUS BOY

HE FINALLY GETS ABOUT 2 MINUTES OF SCREEN TIME. PLAYING AVE MARIA. A DIALOGUE WITH KANADE-CHAN.

STILL SO HANDSOME.

And yes I still think the UST between Jinnan and Seisou is stifling.

Kiiyan will seme the heck out of them. Unless Yucchi is inside (which, he isn't XD).

Primo Passo OTP = Len/Kaho. OT3 = Len/Kaho/Ryoutarou

Blue Sky OTP = Myoga/Kanade

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http://desudesusugoibitches.tumblr.com/post/88099389472/creative-thoth-kicks-in-vol-1-i-love-how-balder

Thoth's ab lib narration of Cinderella is gold.

Fantastic. Now I believe I have KamiAso fanfics I can write. Lemme see if I can churn it out before I die of laughter. It'll be Thoth's narration of the fairytales, starring the KamiAso cast.

XDDDDDDDD

2nd attempt

Second attempt with a score of 20276. Lower than the first one, but what the heck. I'm actually aiming for a lower high score, to see the bare limits. XD

Some of my CPVS P6s came back to play in the band and well, let's just say it was nice interacting with them =w= As for those who didn't stay for band, I just told them to get at least 240. I mean, since you spend all the time studying, as you should, at least aim for decent grades. Starting point in life is in primary school. With some of the best years in your school life. Enjoy it while you can, really. Please don't hasten to grow up - adult life is shit. The process of growing up is not an easy route, even though you mature and experience all kinds of things that make you cringe as you look back.

I am not just an instructor. I educate, and I hope to inspire. I can be strict, I can tell you to put a sock in it, I can tell you you're improving. I want them to know what they're doing will affect people around you, so please think carefully before you make decisions.

I may or may not miss my CPVS kids when I leave (same for FC I guess, to a lesser extent because I'm not as close), as I'm not one for sentiment. No hard feelings.

FINALLY CRACKED IT ON THE COM.

YES I PUT EUNWOL AS 2048 ON PURPOSE. Such a sad lonely soul. Where's my damn fic??

I need a Heroes fic.

Japan trip

I am relatively excited for my trip. Namely, because I just want a getaway from work. And well, this time I am ARMED with 250+ fanfics in my phone. I'll bring my tablet along to watch videos when I'm bored (because I'm lazy to redownload the same fanfics in my phone, though I should. One day). Time to stuff all the videos inside, heh.

But the Spirk fanfics I have are like 60 chapters long, heh. DON'T ASK WHY I'M STILL READING THEM. APPARENTLY I DIDN'T LIKE THE ERIK/CHARLES AU FICS I SEE ON AO3 (and I need more Wolverine and Hank inside the fics. Hank is just adorable, and Wolverine is an immortal badass uncle who should just stop his crush with Jean. I mean, I can tolerate young Jean and Scott, but not the adult versions. Too emo for my liking.)

I should probably continue watching Dr Who.

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I have goals I want to achieve.

I want to travel around the world, as long as it's within my means.

I want to own a house, with a dog and a cat. Dog: preferably Cavalier King Charles Spaniel. (coz I won't be able to afford a Border Collie) Cat: preferably Maine Coon or Norwegian Forest.

I want a good upright piano, European brand. None of the Yamaha or Cristofori nonsense. I probably don't have the space for a baby grand, and it's not like I need one when an upright can fulfill my needs.

I want to learn violin. Traditional wood I guess. Unless you tell me an electric violin is cheaper, which I doubt so *eyes those sold in Yamaha*

http://miyucchichan.tumblr.com/post/82977908949/original-pics-here-4-pixiv

*STARTS FLAILING WILDLY*

THIS

IS

TOO

ADORABLE

AHHHHHHHHHHH

ASDFGHJKLASDFGHJKLASDGHJKALSJDHGJAKSDLGJADSLG

*KEYBOARD SMASHES*

HOW

LITTLE LEGOLAS YOU PRECIOUS BABY YOU

I FINALLY CRACKED 2048 \o/

Let's see if I can replicate the results.

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Heh, I think I found a way to attach Phantom's cape to my shoulders, but I will probably do it tomorrow.

I should also start making Neku's stuff.

Weather's too hot.