This is My Life~~

Things that used to annoy me don't strike that same pang of hurt in me anymore.

It's because, I've learnt to not be bothered by them. Also, when one has several alternatives to deal with such things, I can hold onto them until I release it from my mind.

Sadly, most of it is related to cosplay, which is why I think I'd like to take a break from cosplay and just clear plans, whether at an event or at a shoot. Those I don't plan to have a shoot for, since, friends who initially dragged me in seemed to have lost interest, and other reasons, I'll just debut the cosplay at events I can attend, end of story.

Of course I have cosplays which I plan to do no matter what. I'll do it at my own pace, make sure everything is durable enough, and hopefully debut it before I turn 30. No more petty cosplay dramas between friends and causing rifts as a result - I'm tired of that.

I suppose that's why having Exile Tribe in my life is a refreshing breeze. It's amazing, having something you enjoy and look forward to while you slave away at work. I cannot stress how much I appreciate Exile Tribe for entering my life during my darkest days, especially Sandaime J Soul Brothers. Their music helped me, their shenanigans made me laugh. It's a fandom I'm glad I'm in, and I have no regrets throwing money at them, with the hopes of meeting them in person, with the hopes of seeing them perform overseas one day.

Now I'm waiting for Amazing World balloting results to be out this weekend. Praying very hard now. *crosses fingers*

EXILE魂 バレンタイン王は誰だ！？

http://v.youku.com/v_show/id_XNDA1MTY1MTMy.html?from=y1.2-1-86.3.4-2.1-1-1-3-0

OMG. SO CUTE.

Mama is loved by kids. And why did you young ladies pull at his shorts omfg yes he has a nice ass but really. Ladies, please don't make Papa jealous. You know he doesn't like sharing mama. XD

http://v.youku.com/v_show/id_XMjgyNTU2MDAw.html

Super tan Gun-chan. Please detan yourself lololol. Thank goodness you're not so tan now.

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Yasashii Ryuji~~

FNS27時間テレビ2015 めちゃ×2ピンチってるッ！本気になれなきゃテレビじゃないじゃ～ん

FNS27時間テレビ2015
めちゃ×2ピンチってるッ！本気になれなきゃテレビじゃないじゃ～ん

To watch when I've the time. Because it features Exile. Okamura wanting to do something special for Matsu, Makidai and Usa. It's really nice of him. His friendship with Exile dated back to 2007, if the videos were any indication. Pretty cool of him, haha.

I wonder if he'll make a special appearance during Exile concert. Maybe Tokyo Dome. Today is the day of balloting for mobile sites. Wish me luck! (Results to be out this weekend)

三代目JSB 岩田剛典

I keep getting lots of Gun-chan video clips during my random browsing. This is one of them, just taken in 2014. No complaints - I love Gun-chan, haha. Would like to meet him in person one day.

http://mdpr.jp/news/detail/1504016?utm_content=buffer5a931&utm_medium=social&utm_source=twitter.com&utm_campaign=buffer

Amazing. Zawa-chin's make-up skills is impressive. Pulling off Gun-chan, Omi and Ryota by make-up alone.

Damn. If only my make-up skills were better, haha. But well, gotta practise don't I. I still have Phantom and Makishima Shougo as my testbeds. I've determined to get the look I'll be satisfied with in photos.

But first, my foot must heal.

My foot's healing. It better be. I've placed lots of willpower (and avoiding food I can't eat) to make sure the bone heals, because I am determined to attend Amazing World Exile Tour.

Probably bullshitting, but hey, I believe that if you want it hard enough (this includes working hard towards making it happen), it'll happen. Effort and luck will pay off.

It's boring at home. I've written 4 NaoNao combi fics because I was clearing my WIPs.

And yes, I'm back at work despite the hospitalisation leave. Of course I won't come in everyday - my arms will hurt. It's tiring to move around on crutches. Either your hands hurt or your armpits hurt, because of the crutches digging into your hands/armpits.

I WILL TREAT MYSELF TO A NICE MEAL ONCE I'M GIVEN THE OKAY SIGN TO WALK. I haven't taken the public transport in weeks.

Exile Casino JP 150709

一番追い込まれた顔が見たいのは？

Ichiban oikomareta kao ga mitai no wa? (in Exile Tribe)

That means, whose trapped face do you want to see the most?

The voters picked Naoto.

They want to see Naoto's helpless/trapped face.

This week's Exile Casino JP was Naoto's Russian Roulette challenge. He had to prevent himself from picking the hidden nail among all the 10 brown bags. If he fails, he'd have pierced his hand, so he cannot fail.

I really don't get why they'll do dangerous things. I for one would have been fucking pissed if Naoto had failed and injured his hand.

My respect for Naoto has just shot through the roof, not that I don't respect him in the first place. But the way he reacted in the face of unknown danger (scaring the other members was an added bonus. Loving your do-S side, Naoto), I just think, yeah, this man is worthy of my respect. Let's just say, not many can earn my respect that easily.

And this is why I sincerely think picking Naoto and Naoki as leaders of 3JSB is one of the best decisions ever. Good job Hiro. You've nurtured two excellent people.

If you think Naoki isn't much, please watch the older Exile variety shows and read his interviews. His love for Exile is greater than any fan's, he genuinely cares for his fellow members, he's one of the first few to react under threat (see Perfect Year 2014 with Mechaike), he tries to break up conflict, he tried to connect to the main Exile group when 2JSB merged into Exile, he wanted a goddamn trip to Mount Fuji's best resort with all the Exile members (Tokyo Friend Park), he didn't earn the okaasan title from 3JSB for nothing.

Most importantly, he balances out Naoto. The yin and yang. They need each other. I've mentioned this so many times, they are so dependent on each other, it's pretty much soulmate level. Yeah, OmiRyu is cute, their voices balance out each other, they harmonise really well, but NaoNao combi runs deeper than what you see.

I didn't go gaga over my OTP NaoNao combi just because I find them cute =.= FYI, my OTPs aren't just limited to all the romance and NSFW between them - I ship them as bros, comrades, soulmates, rivals, lovers, close friends.

For two weeks, I'm on house arrest of sorts because I fractured my left foot on Thursday night. My foot slipped into a knee-high drain and I fell forward. I was surprised I didn't sprain my ankle, but what the heck I fractured a bone. That's worse.

And now I'm idly surfing the net for craft ideas and watching videos and doing work from home. I plan to recover so that I can go to Amazing World Exile Tour in December.

Let's not forget shirt designing.

https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.nos_network.launcher.theme.mylauncher_togpaisley_gp

http://idollogo.blogspot.sg/search/label/%E4%B8%89%E4%BB%A3%E7%9B%AE%20J%20Soul%20Brothers

These are fanmade. I have other plans.

Choo Choo Train starting from Matsu and ending at Naoki. And Naoto's never been happier with his height because he gets to stand in front. (Naoto, your sarcasm is showing. XD)

Which is why Naoki's so happy when he won Tecchan and Keiji to stand in front.

Hiro picked the 3rd from the back so that he can see if anyone's slacking off with the arm movements. Dooooood. XDDDDDD

Here ya go.

I will not apologise for reblogging, reposting, sharing the stuff I like. In fact, I don't particularly care. You can post the stuff you like, that's good for you. It's nice to know you at least have something you like and don't mind the world knowing. Offensive stuff however, please keep it secret. Have some courtesy, really.

I've not cared for whether others like the same things I do for a long time - just having them in the same fandom is already a blessing because it's more fun to fangirl together, all the jargon, all the memes, sharing the stupid things and "HOLY SHIT I'M SLAYED" things. It's less lonely and I'm thankful for friends whom I can relate to.

Within the fandom, we will have different favourite characters too, why fight? We have different OTPs, different favourites, different dislikes, and that's perfectly fine. We're all in the same ship, staying in different cabins.

It's fine if you don't want to see them on the dash. Just scroll through. Unfollow. Whatever. I'm on social media platforms to follow my fandoms and artists, be updated with the news and info, not to gain popularity. To be popular, you have to also deal with the haters. If you can't, too bad, no one's going to sympathise.

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I like being unique, I like staying in the shadows, I like to stand out sometimes, I am proud to say I like being myself, with all my flaws and black history and my strong spirit pushing me forward into the unknown future. I fall, I get back up, and I move on. I'm strong, and I will show you how strong I am.

I have broken down, been through dark times, and gotten back onto my feet. I have failed multiple times, made mistakes, and moved on. I have never suffered anxiety or mental disorders or depression despite the so-called symptoms because I have a naturally strong will.

I developed it over the years, so don't you dare discount that. Don't you dare say I'm faking things just to show off. There is no reason for me to do such trivial things. My plans are bigger.

I've no time for you and your petty, narrow-minded thoughts and opinions.