The Power Of Words And Glasses

Okay, this is a kink meme, I'm not too fond about the summary of the events that came before, but I like how Denmark and Sweden intimidated the shit out of America. if only they can do the same for Russia - even though his personality is similar to mine, I don't like how everyone fears him just because he also has Belarus who will defend him no matter what. I mean, hey, the Vikings came from Scandinavia. They were barbarians back then, even Norway. Actually, I just love the Nordic family and how closely knit they are, even though secretly they all just want to "beat the living crap out of each other". It's like those shounen manga where there will be at least two guys who just want to beat each other up, but somehow turn into mutual allies when facing a common enemy.

I just want to think of the Nordics as a band of brothers. The Norse Brotherhood, rofl. And my particular soft spot for DenSu/ SuDen ^^

Oniichan

Ao no Exorcist, oh my god, there's Yusa Kouji!!!! (is he Mephisto-san?) I want to add Ao no Exorcist to my cosplay list!!!

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I'm glad I'm not a keyboardist for Grace's band. Truthfully, I'm a soloist, unless I'm in a symphonic band. I can also play accompaniment, but in a band as keyboardist? You'll see me thrashing the stupid five-octave keyboard faster than one can say "piano". I'd rather a digital piano with the full range.

NEXT YEAR'S ARTS FIESTA, KEYBOARD DUET??!! YES/YES? BAD APPLE IS DEFINITELY ON THE LIST.

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Toriko. I picked it up because one of the seiyuu is Okiayu-san. I haven't heard his voice for so long~ Yes, I like him because he voiced Tezuka, Byakuya and Dark.

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I DIED. MY WISH CAME TRUE. THEN NORWAY WHISPERING INTO EAR...I think I saw a glimpse of Paradise. So sexy, gods. He's like the shoujo manga sexy bishonen, as in, the really beautiful kind who oozes pheromones and send many girls' hearts aflutter or even cause nosebleed and fainting incidents around school.

SU-SAN M'WIFE AND DANMARK WHY SO HANDSOME!!!!!!

AISU WHY SO TSUN

FINLAND, I LIKE THAT VEST.

"Oniichan"

http://community.livejournal.com/hetalia/10519825.html

Nordics!!! I'm a fan of the Nordics.

http://community.livejournal.com/hetalia/10518413.html?#cutid1

DENMARK, WHY SO HOT??!!! AND NORWAY, WHY SO PRETTY???!!!

But I still prefer DenSu. DenNor as best friends is fine, but anything else, I'd prefer DenSu.

OMG, SU-SAN, WHY SO CUTE?!! *glomps wife*

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I wanted to register for IA, but I've no idea what Postal Code No they're referring to...

Thanks, bro. Just registered for IA. ^^

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Peish and I are discussing what to do for Cosfest day 2. I suggested Iceland and Norway sailorfuku, but it's hard to find accurate pictures of them...Eh, me as Thai-kun? I'll be the living androgynous (reverse) trap.

／l、
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l、ﾞ ~ヽ
じしf_, )ノ

Meow

Why am I Kaito? -.-

I might be taking Synchronicity warrior Kaito - sorry, I'll drown in his Arabian costume. And usually I'll prefer warriors. Easier to pose with.

Other cosplayers may do characters for pretty photos. Well, perhaps, but I'd do the characters for the expression I want to portray. Pretty pictures =/= being in character.

2011
Hetalia - Imperial Prussia. Only for Cosfest, and Gakuentalia, I think. Then I'm outta the picture. Coz I think Hetalia is getting overdone
Durarara - Walker. The one and only guy I'd do for Durarara
Pandora Hearts - Xerxes. Not sure what version though - I seriously think his two costumes are way too overdone

Future
Tsugai Kogarashi - Kaito. Looking forward to learning the dance without watching the video, and perfecting it to my style.
Synchronicity - warrior Kaito? I'll DROWN in those robes of his...but if they don't have Gakupo, I'll "upgrade" myself and be him...since people want to see me with long hair...

Future plans...not that I know of. I don't know if I'll still continue cosplaying when I start work; probably no time to plan? Haha...I will continue until my features say I longer can do bishonen/biseinen.

From SanCon (I read only when the articles aren't that H. though seriously some are really load of bull)

"Japanese women asked which scenes from sappy romantic manga they would most like to experience themselves in real life yield up a list likely of interest to budding Casanovas and mawkish manga fans alike."


1. He hugs you from behind and says “I love you”
2. “Come with me today,” he propositions you a little forcefully
3. “You did well, didn’t you?” he says as he strokes your head
4. He reveals the person he was always seeking romantic advice for was actually himself
5. He kisses you as you turn your head
6. “What’s wrong?” he says as he peers at your face with some concern
7. He gets into a fight over you
8. He suddenly holds you by your chin and kisses you
9. When he sees you off, he suddenly pulls you onto the train with him as the train departs
10. “Don’t cry” he says as he wipes away your tears

Pretty much shoujo manga-esque, but I quite like #5 and #8. I'll like #1 WITHOUT the words, thank you very much. Maybe it's me, but usually these things get me the most, especially if the girl is the cool, unsuspecting kind. I don't see female coolderes around shoujo manga. But I suppose they probably don't sell. Fanfiction, however, is different. Spunky females that play hard to get are aplenty. Those that resist to the end, and fall for another guy, ah, haven't seen that plotline happen before =)

I can think of ideas for stories, but don't expect me to write a long, multi-chaptered story. A series of oneshots is fine though.

Tadaima

I'm back.

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Ack, cosplaying Gakupo? =.= I don't know how I'll look like with long hair. Never grown one before. And I really don't want to contribute to the overdone vocaloid cosplays...Thank you for complimenting my face and head structure - I know I'm skinny =.=

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Will I want a "very bishie" boyfriend lest I feel inferior? Hmm, I will, and no, I won't feel inferior. Looks aside, I'm sure he must have his own problems for looking like a girl. Personality is important too.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/INTJ

I'm well aware of my limitations, thank you very much.

"The emotions of an INTJ are hard to read, and neither male nor female INTJs are apt to express emotional reactions. At times, INTJs seem cold, reserved, and unresponsive, while in fact they are almost hypersensitive to signals of rejection from those they care for."

Yeah, applies to me too...Nope, not gonna elaborate. I don't want to spend time explaining my complicated self.

vocaloid

I'm in love with KaitoXMeiko duets. By 仕事してP-san. Maybe because I like the somewhat traditional vibes of the songs (I AM a sucker for songs of these genres. Infusing traditional with modern. I can listen to such songs for hours without getting tired of them)

I like Luka and Meiko. Beats Miku anytime. Sorry Miku fans *totally not apologetic at all* And Piko-tan, haha. Yes I'm still listening to Sakurane on loop.

There are songs which I will continue listening for years to come and never tire of. There are songs which I like initially, but will not have the patience to continue listening after a period of time. Then there are songs which I will listen only once or twice, then refuse to replay again until it randomly pops up on my mp3.

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I hate to contribute to the overdone vocaloid cosplays in Singapore, but I sure do want to do Tsugai Kogarashi. Complete with the dance, thank you very much. I think I'll freak out if someone videos the dance...or not, since I usually heck care.

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大丈夫ですか、日本のみんなさん。The world is praying for your safety.

Wishing that all my Japanese friends are safe. (I wonder if fans are worried that their mangaka, seiyuu and artistes won't be around to continue their work, or that they are truly, genuinely concerned about their wellbeing, to hell with anime and manga for the time being)

Genesis must be angry. 8.9 on the Richter scale, I'm sure my Geography knowledge has partially left me.

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Reading a HP fic, then I came across this line which is so true that I can't help but smile.

"Why were girls normal and somewhat understandable until the moment you wanted to date them?" - Animal Craving

So true

At least I've someone to talk to this time. Thanks Amanda. In my rage I forgot that I shouldn't stoop to their level of an eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth.

Though I really wonder how come they never think they might someday get a taste of their medicine, no matter how unintentional. And how they never get their facts right before pointing all the blame at me. Dang, I hate that more than anything else, putting the blame on someone due to their guilty conscience (or so I perceive). They have their pride. So do we. Next time, think before you act. I can't say I practise that, but usually I don't give a rat's ass of what others think of me. Just that I'm very stressed, so my temper just worsened, and my tolerance level plunged.

Stressed - a heated tirade of words, words and more words, each harsher than the next.

Amiable - "If that's how you think, so be it. I'm not going to waste time explaining my unintentions since you probably won't listen anyway. It just reflects your own inability to take things with a pinch of salt when you do the same to others and expect them to be able to withstand the full brunt of your attacks." FYI, I am not doing what you perceive me to be doing.

In other words, I may be at fault for putting it up, but I am not to blame for the events that follow. You can choose to write, or you can choose to ignore. What they say has nothing to do with me.

I'm glad we have mediators. I'm not happy they think they can hide behind their computer screens and criticise me like that. I'd rather face-to-face so that I can observe their reactions, to see what lies behind that masks of deceit. I'm sorry to say I have the tendency to bring out others' bad sides, but I'm not sorry for doing it. I could have replied in another way. Whether they see me in a different manner or not, I can care less. After all, they're graduating. I won't see them when I go IA. I won't see them anymore after they graduate, unless they come back for activities.

Don't bring out my bad side. I'm usually straightforward, blunt and sarcastic, but when my mood turns bad, my words are harsher and might stir up a storm. They always say never piss off a usually good-natured person. I'm not "usually good-natured", I'm "usually happy-go-lucky" with a very high tolerance level. (such as tolerating people's bad moods) But when under stress, my tolerance level goes down, and I'm prone to being easily annoyed.

Don't push my buttons, and I won't push yours. Best way to do it - avoid each other.

桜音

Piko - Sakurane
Lyrics:
Omoi yosereba sakura hirahira
koboreochiru bokutachi no namida
itsuitsu made mo
kawashita egao
kimi to no yakusoku
subete no toki yo
kagayaki tsuzukete

tabidatsu hi no kimi ni
nani mo ie nakatta
"sayonara".. omoide no basho

kara bo no haru sora
michi afureta kokoro
wakatte ita hazu nanoni

tomedonaku kizami yuku hibi
tsunagi tometai omoi wo

omoi yosereba sakura hirahira
koboreochiru bokutachi no namida
itsuitsu made mo
kawashita egao
kimi to no yakusoku
subete no toki yo
kagayaki tsuzukete

futari yakusoku shita
sakura no konoshita de
ano hi no kimi wo sagashita

akane iro kurete yuku sora
wasurerare nai omoi wo

fui mukeba mara sakura hirahira
yomigaeru tomo sugoshita hibi
ayunda michi wa
iro azayaka ni
boku no tonari ni
kimi wa inai yo
toni furitsumore

kimi ni aitakute aitakute
sakura ga chiru mae ni
meguru kisetsu no naka
kirameita kimi ga ita koto

omoi yosereba sakura hirahira
kimi wo saga shite sora wo miageta
mou ichido dake deaeru no nara
kimi ni tsutaeru
kotoba ga aru yo
hanabira ninosete
kagayaki tsuzukete...

Translation:
Whenever I gather my thoughts, cherry blossoms flutter,
And our tears spill over.
We exchanged smiles forever and ever.
Our promise will continue to shine for all time.

I couldn't say anything the day you left on your journey.
"Goodbye..." The place of that memory.

The empty sky was overflowing with hearts,
I should have known.

The days go on endlessly,
I want to secure these thoughts.

Whenever I gather my thoughts, cherry blossoms flutter,
And our tears spill over.
We exchanged smiles forever and ever.
Our promise will continue to shine for all time.

We made a promise under a cherry tree.
I searched for the you of that day.

As the red sky darkens,
Those feelings are on my mind.

If you'd look back, just look, you'd see the cherry blossoms flutter.
I will revive the days we spent together.
The road we walked was colorful.
You're no longer by my side, eternity is too long.

I just want to see you before the cherry blossoms bloom,
In between the changing seasons, with you.

Whenever I gather my thoughts, cherry blossoms flutter,
Searching for you, I looked up to the sky.
If we meet again,
I will tell you that the words,
Written on those petals,
Continue to shine.

VAS character ranking

I did a VAS character ranking (thanks, Zhiming. I suppose it reminds me of that too ^^;) on who tops who. Nothing implied; it's only my observation combined with Silk's. Well, I do have a natural instinct to protect those weaker than me. Yes, even though I do seem to pick on some (like Stif and Shaun), it's just me and my sarcastic yet factual remarks.

I top all the girls officially registered in the club. How I'd compare with the guys, I don't know. And everyone's included. No exceptions. I'm sitting on the fence. I hadn't included my name yet, reason being, I want to know what others think of me. It's only for fun. If people take it seriously, then that's being stupid. Well, let's just say those who feel offended are getting their just desserts for constantly picking on those who always seem to get their words twisted. Like Denise, Joan, Stifler. I can't do anything about Stifler's situation, but he's mentally strong to be able to handle all the teasing. Me, either I ignore, or I go physical.

Just someone you don't mess with. I make it hard for others to bully me, whether he makes it a point to annoy the heck out of me or otherwise.

Piko

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I like Piko's voice. Seriously. He can sing low, and then high. Well, so does Sekihan. The first video I watched was their Magnet duet. When they switched to girls' voices I was amazed. They can voice female roles well. Though I was O_o at SekihanxPiko. Totally milking all the fangirls' reactions, arn?

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*sigh*

I like Piko's male and female voices. Now I feel sad I can't sing low, only higher and higher....-.- But the only thing I can say is, he has a pretty face yes, but it's distinctively male. Yes I'm so exposed to pretty faces I can tell male and female pretty well, though I'm not 100% accurate.

I admire guys who can sing low and high. Like Keita from w-inds. Well, first and foremost, it makes it easier for someone like me to sing their songs. I suppose it's the only reason, haha ^^;

In a place with extreme temperature differences

Mar 11, 2011. Friday

The thread that made me turn so cold even the surrounding temparatures couldn't hold up to the blizzards emanating from me. All of a sudden, I welcomed this intensive cold feeling sweeping over me. (it's currently removed from the group, together with the who top who doc.) Truthfully I can care less what happens to it, even though initially I was scowling at Chronorec's remarks. Thanks for saying it out. I like "direct confrontation" better than a PM, though I'd have liked it better if it were in person. Saying things behind a computer screen, so not manly. What I wanted to know out of curiosity became a topic of offense to others, mostly the guys. Perhaps I was insensitive (still am, what can you do? The truth hurts, you know) and unknown to the consequences, but even if I had known, I did ask before I posted the doc.

Inwardly, I wanted to find out who would react the most. Perhaps it was some sadistic streak in me, to let those hypocrites get the taste of their own medicine when someone else does it to them. Or maybe I just wanted to tell them, indirectly, that it's not funny if you gang up on one person too often. They may see it as a joke, but I don't. I appear to pick on Stif, but I'm stating the harsh facts. He just happens to contradict my views. And that makes me appear as if I'm abusing him.

I could just voice out everyone's faults which I observed. I didn't. I kept it bottled. Unfortunately it just accumulated. I wished this hadn't happened, but once it did, I hadn't regretted my actions. Though I'm glad Dee and Stif were there to mediate, otherwise I might have continued posting what I truly felt. I don't care what Chronorec says about me, calling me immature, defensive, always wanting to get the upperhand, wanting to show I'm right or whatever. Too bad, you're dealing with an INTJ with ISTJ streaks. From today onwards, I hereby disregard you as a leader...oh wait, I've long disregarded you as a leader. I apologise for not understanding the consequences of the thread, but I will not apologise for stirring up this storm. It's been building up for so long; let it rage and die down. I don't care if you see me as the bad guy; as long as you reflect on your deeds, I'll let bygones be bygones. This doesn't apply to one person alone.

I did say I want to run as part of the main com next year. But now, I truly can care less whether he votes against me or not. If he did, go ahead, you're just biased because of one incident. I can stop what I'm doing if people tell me to, supported with sound reasons, even if I tend to be a tad bit stubborn...no, make that very stubborn. However, I won't back down in a fight, even if I have high chances of losing.

Live and let go. Sure, it's not worth agonizing over it anyway. I've more important things to do than fret over it, or bawl my eyes out. Perhaps having four projects is worsening my temper too much. They haven't seen how scary I am when I'm in a bad mood yet. All those facebook posts don't count. If we were in the same room I might unleash my inner demon. To heck with the consequences - whoever annoyed me can deal with them themselves.

This may or may not be posted. I need to remind myself I've faced worse and survived.

Right now, it is not out of pride that I do not surrender. I do not surrender, therefore I am proud.

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I lost the original thread. It must be fate who wants me to emerge stronger than this nonsense and not hold grudges. But all I can say is, I've lost faith in VAS. The people are too individualistic, saying things without thinking, doing their own things, as if exercising their rights to do what they want. I'm sorry, I can't see most of them as leaders now. They don't deserve my loyalty; they aren't even worth my time. Friends, perhaps. Mutual acquaintances I suppose. But as leaders? The only few I would follow are Amos and Denise.

Can I drop out of Hetalia fandom now? It's corrupting me worse than any other anime and manga that I know. I mean, because of a fic, I can never view the world map the same way again, especially when the fic talks about the Nordics.

Su-san's my wife, Papa.

At least it provided a distraction, albeit a disturbing one, from all the shit I've been through the past few weeks. I need more distractions, otherwise I might just lose myself and become an emotionless robot. I used to be a cold piece of titanium humanoid, one with barely any emotions. Now I've more, so much that when I want to be silent and cold, my friends ask if something's wrong with me. That's how much I've changed, or how fake I appear to others.

If you ask what is my true self in the past, I'd just tell you I'm cold and aloof to most save for few close friends. Now, I believe my true self is extreme, almost bipolar, but always sarcastic and blunt and obstinate to the point of no return.

Yakusoku no Basho e in Chinese, omg. I MUST get the lyrics and try to sing it next time. The lyrics sound nice too...it kinda cheered me up after I tried holding back tears.

Being too angsty for my own good....

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I MUST download SQL no matter what. Stupid software didn't download properly last time...I need it to do my work, or I won't get enough practice writing SQL...I don't want to get a B for this course. I aim for A-.

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L4D VAS. Sounds feasible if it were a story. I like the idea of my inner Gin let loose. No matter who I cosplay, Gin's character remains strong. Hibari's character too, when I'm feeling extremely bloodthirsty.

http://community.livejournal.com/hetalia/10380572.html#cutid1

NORDICS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Okay, back to work. Gotta learn how to do normalization for lab...as for my 205 lab2, apparently I'm fine...somewhat. I understand what I'm doing. Hopefully I won't screw up the interview when I come back from recess week...or what's supposed to be my recess week.

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Yay, got my Hakuouki Hekketsuroku OST. I think I like the OST better than Hakuouki Shingengumi Kitan, maybe because of the OP and ED instrumental. Really nice. ^^

I need music to do work. Except that I tend to put my favourite songs on loop.

I WILL watch Durarara episode 25, and Rebocon Taiwan, and Rebocon Red....plus my e-learning videos. (Might watch my e-learning videos with background music, ahaha~ Oh no, I just need to put some piano music on loop that's all XDD)

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Imouto wants to "join" CoEn. Gods...no, I'm not letting the Regulars corrupt her. She does not need to know what all the otaku terms mean. Let her remain in the K-world, kthxbai. But her friend WANTS to join. Excellent, a new cosplayer joining us ^^

Awesome, Rebocon Red is out! I shall download it later, ohoho~

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I need something to remind me I'm still human. I need something to keep me on the reality plane. I'm thinking about a lot of things, things that may or may not be relevant to the current event. I zone out when I lose interest.

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It's one thing when they say you don't understand the basic concepts - it's another thing if you're expected to be intelligent and be able to read between the lines that are already between the lines. If I were that pro I wouldn't be in this course - I'll be critically analysing texts and music scores and whatnot. Moreover, it's not like we don't understand the basic concepts - our interpretation of the subject, as researched on the internet, is different from our lab sup's interpretation. I see a gap here.

Did I forget to mention, I absolutely HATE indecisions that beat about the bush? If I don't know, fine. If I know, I'll speak up. Think through, question yourself until you're confident, get it done and over with, move on.

This sucks.

http://www.renpy.org/

Make visual novels? =)

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Japan's states: http://www.geocities.jp/himaruya/todouhuken_san.html

Yeah...kinda interesting. How come Osaka isn't inside? O.o

Yeah, well, turns out I'll be going to Comifest after all. Because of an interview with a prof doing research that is related to anime and light novels. I stated 4pm...then I realise I am actually free after 1pm. Oh well, at least I can have lunch first before going, haha.

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Gotta do my 184 tutorial and continue updating my projects and study Database SQL. I suck at doing my tutorial questions. I must be practise more in order to remember how to do them. No more repeats of last semester!!! RAWR

Titanic!Hetalia was interesting. I was bemused...until the part where Sweden told Finland to take care of Sealand and go. That was where I first went "Shit...why are my cheeks wet?" Denmark and Norway sticking together doing whatver they can, because they're best friends (and part of the ship's crew) was really heartwarming. And Germany's expression (as captain)...was sad.

But that aside, I didn't feel much.

Okay, every relationship is different. Are you expecting a wholly romantic kind where the guy is lovey-dovey and openly shows his affection by words and actions? Man, if that's the case I can forget about my reverse harem manga/anime/game. I mean, so many different types of guys, and you expect a fairytale romance. How...stupid.

I don't mind if my future boyfriend is one who doesn't openly display his affection. In fact, I'll welcome it. I hate mushiness. I hate beating around the bush. Just get straight to the point. And being a cooldere means I'm also not prone to thinking too much about what he might do during his free time.

Hetalia family meme

Who are your parents? (hetalia countries)

Austria and Hungary. 'Nuff said.

Describe yourself with your parent's features....(etc russia's scarf or height...BLAH)

A musician like Papa, with Mama's headstrong and tomboyish attitude

Pick three countries to be your brothers and give a reason why you chose them.

Denmark - he's idiotically cute

Norway - Pretty Norway~

Iceland - Tsun Ice~

France, England, America and Canada......who do you like as your uncle?

Canada.

Pick an Auntie(GIRL hetalia countries only!!!)

Ukraine. She's scarier than Belarus.

Pick 2 cousins. And give a reason why you chose them.

Greece - cat-lover

Finland - his snipers are fun to play with

Who do you want as a grandpa? Rome or Germania?

Germania.

What about Prussia? Is he a part of your family?

Uncle.

Now pick a husband or wife.

Sweden.

Oh Farkeker! Prussia is bullying you!!! What would your Daddy and older bros do??!

Daddy won't do anything. Mama will. Niichan will let me fight my own battles because I inherited Mama's genes.